Understanding Consciousness: Part II


How does Belief affect Consciousness?

We are biologically programmed to believe. To know. Every thought results in electromagnetic conduits connecting and disconnecting, synapses forming pathways between neurons, forging the personality through experience and intent. The mind becomes whatever we think as our bodies become whatever we eat.

Convoluting the brain in this manner is normative. Even in rejecting belief we are forming a belief. Patterning the brain and its neural structures a certain way as opposed to another.

When we literally change our minds we change our brains physically. It is the way our bodies are set up to host consciousness. Part and parcel of the program. To not believe is a contradiction in terms. And yet, the paradox is that moving beyond belief and knowledge is the path. To change the mind, to change the biology to become perfectly clear is to change the state of consciousness. The correlation lies in the actual physiological shifts that occur in the body when modalities designed to clear the mind are implemented and integrated into a life, becoming the primary mode of expression. The new field of quantum biology explores the unity of mind and body and the physiology of consciousness.

While it is often entertaining and personally gratifying to obtain knowledge and hold beliefs there comes a point when holding on to the ephemeral, the constantly shifting, must give way to the search for inner peace. Returning to the paradox I mentioned above, knowledge flows easily and beliefs no longer hold the power to physically mold the mind once a state of mental equilibrium is reached. Of course many here are familiar with the practices concerned with achieving this state of being.

The important correlation here is the integration of body and mind. Leading to the understanding that this is all more than mere thoughts, word and actions in the colloquial sense of understanding those terms.

There is much more. The entanglement of minds that form institutions, attitudes, mores and norms, our interrelation to and entanglement with the biosphere. The speed with which our bodies change at the cellular level, the interaction of breath with the air and the environment, the passage of germs and viruses, the decomposition of biological matter and reintegration with the world corpus are all examples of the integration of individual and mass humanity with the Earth. The only separation inherent in our existence is the separation we create within our minds. The holistic nature of our entwined unity of consciousness and biology is no mere idea. It is the fundamental substrate of our very existence. Since that is so, beliefs cannot be subtracted from the corpus of cognition that we engage in and co-create every moment of every day.

Beliefs are an expression of consciousness, and the wide variety of beliefs speaks to the divergence of experience for the human family. Different sub-groups of the family hold differing beliefs, but the ability of all humans to access those cultural beliefs is a pale shadow of each individual’s ability to access the core experience of consciousness, which underlies belief and culturally-specific information. Understanding and relegating these beliefs to a supporting role and distancing them from the knowledge of reality that powers our experience of materiality enhances the connection with the deeper streams of material creation and the core aspects of the human biological interface with the world.

Understanding Consciousness Series

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Understanding Consciousness: Part 1


Why and How We are Connected with All That Is

What is consciousness? From the freedictionary.com:

con·scious·ness  (knshs-ns)

n.

1. The state or condition of being conscious.
2. A sense of one’s personal or collective identity, including the attitudes, beliefs, and sensitivities held by or considered characteristic of an individual or group: Love of freedom runs deep in the national consciousness.

3.

a. Special awareness or sensitivity: class consciousness; race consciousness.
b. Alertness to or concern for a particular issue or situation: a movement aimed at raising the general public’s consciousness of social injustice.
4. In psychoanalysis, the conscious.
Thoughts are energetic emanations. Electromagnetic and expansive in nature, thought-forms as processed through the biological conduits of neurons and synapsesare the physical forms of creative communication. They can be measured and quantified. The brain’s biological mechanisms, from the amygdala to the thalamus to the pre-frontal cortex, are the structures by which it is wired to process thoughts and create emotions which provide a chemical momentum that powers not only the body but the non-physical energetic coalescence of presence and intent as well.

Humans are multidimensional entities. Consciousness is eternal, infinite and integrally connected to all that is. Quantum experiments have proven the validity of entanglement, which states that all matter in the universe and beyond is interconnected. The double-slit experiment proved that consciousness is an integral part of experience, that the observer cannot be separated from the observed. The existence of multiple dimensions of consciousness is now the general understanding of the nature of creation. All of these facets of scientific discovery are connected and provide a holistic understanding of reality that transcends ideas of a mechanical, objective universe and replaces them with an understanding of a universe, a multiverse, of synthesis, holism and oneness.

In such a creation, consciousness is the binding glue that connects the disparate levels. Humans contain the spark of divinity that connects them not only with all other humans but with animals, insects and plants too. The consciousness inherent in all life also is now beyond dispute, as the intelligence of animals and plants grows more and more undeniable. The ability to think, to reason, to love, to recognize danger and to communicate with each other with a range of emotivity previously relegated to humans alone have all been witnessed and documented as occurring in both the animal and plant kingdoms.  Canines and birds, crystals and fungi, flowers and whales, grasses and machines, viruses and germs all display aspects of consciousness. Humanity is far from alone in possessing the seeds of the divine, it is inherent in all matter, is a fundamental make-up of all of material creation, from the most inanimate to the most animate.

Beyond the material world, into the inter-dimensional darkness of the unknown, consciousness connects our 3rd-dimensional reality with other planes of existence as well. In the realm of psychology, the existence of a collective unconscious has been explored and confirmed, humans share symbols and archetypes across the diverse field of biological difference, no matter what part of the globe any individual or group might be from. This holistic field of shared consciousness can be broken down into cultural groupings, as those who share societal mores form smaller collectivities, still connected to the whole, but sharing individuated markers that make them distinct from the larger groups, to the extent that an individual is ensconced within a family collective that nests within a local collective that is also nested within a regional collective that exists within a national collective which is itself a part of a racial collective.

Understanding that consciousness is not unique to humanity opens the doors to deeper knowledge, prepares the mind for grasping the truths of existence that guide cause and effect upon their fateful courses for all of manifest creation. Communicating lovingly with pets and plants, screaming at breaking or broken machines, are ways of transmitting specific types of energy between different forms of consciousness. The types of energy that we communicate through our thoughts, words and actions determines the nature of our interaction with other forms of consciousness. When it comes to communicating to sensate creation, other denizens of the material plane of existence, emotions flavor our very essence, adding energetic impetus to the force of our thoughts, words and actions. Pets know when we are angry or sad, inanimate objects tend to perform or break coincident to our emotional state.

In the realm of experience, cause and effect also seem to be respondent to emotional states, as internal harmonic resonance often leads to positive life events and outcomes, while internal disharmonic resonance leads to the opposite. How and what a person thinks determines the trajectory of potential outcomes along their life-path. In the daily interactions of the awakened consciousness manifest, individuals embark upon vibrant and responsive patterns of thought and behavior, the holistic nature of their cognitive processes emanating outwards and affecting the world around them in all aspects. In the daily interactions of slumberous consciousness manifest, individuals embark upon repetitious patterns of thought and behavior, the fractured nature of their cognitive processes emanating outwards and affecting the world around them in all aspects. Alert and active participation with life is thusly the modus operandi of all those who have direct control over their thought-processes, words and actions. Sleepwalking through life is thusly the modus operandi of all those with no direct control over their thought-processes, words and actions.

Engaging consciousness actively can only occur if an individual understands the nature of reality. Coming to terms with the power inherent in full intentionality and living consciously awakens the inherent capacity of all humans to control the nature and content of their own minds, which in turn affects the people, the animals, the plants, the non-animate objects and extra-physical realities within which they exist. All denizens of materiality, the created world, must undergo a period of learning during their phase of existential interaction with the rest of creation, the final stage of which must be the harmonic and stable interrelation with all other forms of manifest reality. Moving past stages of fractious and unstable thought processes leading to fractious and unstable emotions, which then result in the vocalization and actualization through actions of such, is the goal of consciousness and the natural evolution of individuals and groups through adolescent stages of interaction to a more mature realization and manifestation.

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Sunbeam Dreams and the Recriminations of the Mind


Soul’s full bloom opens
with the light of
dawn’s bursting frenzy,
illuminating somnolent
night.

Through the eyes of
love,
creation blossoms;
birth, death and rebirth
cyclic and eternal
scions of divinity’s
conscious intent.

I suppose awakening fully to the knowledge that you’re not being all you can be is a daunting prospect. Realizing that all that you’ve done during your life is only a portion of what you’ve always been fully capable of is an indictment of intention and purpose that really begs the question, why?

Why do we not live up to our potential? What choice is it that we make that leaves us lying in the bed watching motes of dust dance on sunbeams as the morning passes and midday approaches and we listen to the cars in the distance, floating gently in recrimination and soothing, non-judgemental daydreams? At what point do the circumstances of your life reach a critical point at which you must, finally, make a decision regarding who you are and where you are going?

Can it be so easy? Is there one, specific point in our lives that we can look back to that we can say, without hesitation, “There. That is the place where I decided to be the person that I am today.”

Maybe mama’s soothing voice carried you through childhood and beyond, echoing in memory as a rippling reflection of perception. Maybe it didn’t and she was a cold shrew, her eyes lasers of recrimination and unrealized dreams. Memory and love play hide and seek sometimes, ducking behind feelings and scenes that seem set in stone. But you can never be sure if what you remember happened exactly as you think it did, in fact, talking to others sometimes bring forth memories you’d forgotten you had, or recasts other memories in a new light as you are reminded of specific incidences that you may have suppressed, or, more likely, not paid attention to when they were occuring in the first place. Daddy was there or not there, sometimes stern and strong, sometimes weak and vacillating but he was daddy, and you loved him either way. Only child or burdened with brothers and sisters, the lessons of responsibility came hard and fast during the maturation process, interactions with family preparing the way for school. The early trauma of playground bullies, treacherous playmates or home situations that were less than perfect mark the twisted path with signposts of screaming pain, each of which turns us from one direction to another or beckons us further along that smaller, darker path, leading down into the brambles and underbrush of the deep, scary forest of lost dreams and desire.

Is it truly a choice to be slave to your conditioning? And, if so, at what point does one realize it, if ever? And, if one choose to become fully realized in such a way, what does it take to move past the conditioning of the past, and become more than a familial or societal Manchurian Candidate?

It is at the point where you realize that carrying around the old scores and festering wounds of ancient, and fresh, trials and tribulations is actually weighing you down – preventing you from moving forward into the present without anger, without pain, without interpreting every, single event that happens to you through eyes that are still seeing your father, mother, uncle, cousin, friend, enemy of years and years ago, doing whatever they did, saying whatever they said, being whoever they were to you, back then – that you become consciously aware of your enslavement, and are able to make sober decisions regarding your present course of action.

I don’t even have to close my eyes to see Del City, Oklahoma, me on my Grit route delivering my papers, and Mike Clark and his little toady following me through the neighborhood shouting taunts and racial slurs, me finally making it home only to have my next door neighbor and best friend, Jeff McDaniels, ask me why Mike Clark was calling my mother a “Black Bitch”? Mike Clark and his curses didn’t hurt me half as much as that smirk Jeff couldn’t hide and the gleam in his eye that told me he knew the place those words came from intimately and that, just maybe, he was not the friend I thought he was.

Continuous series of memories of ghostly interactions that are no more real now than they were when they occuring. The statement by the spiritually-evolved that life is an illusion makes a little bit of sense when you think about how quickly things happen, and the fact that by the time something happens it’s already over and you’re interpreting it in your mind, applying weight and meaning to events that occurred in the space of an instant and then receded, becoming memory almost before you even knew that it was happening. All of life is like that, and most of our mental work is concerned with keeping up, trying not to go down beneath the continuous flow of happenings, of thoughts, the cause and effect of all movement, be it mental, physical or spiritual in nature.

What does it gain us to hold on to pain, when it is just as easy to let it go like an amnesiac? Is it true that we are defined by our past? By who we have been? When someone asks you about yourself, what do you say? Do you rattle off a litany of facts? “I am so and so from somewhere or another, my mama is that woman and my brother is that dude. I went to school here and joined the whatever and spent five years over there doing this and that until I got back here and met you right now.”

Is that truly who you are?

Or is it, rather, who you were.

And, if that is who you were? A continuous series of “weres” that is in progress even up to this very moment, then who does that make you right now? I mean, right then? And then? And thenandthenandthenandthenandthen? Who are we, right Now, right this instant, and how do we determine who we are? Can we do so through the eyes of others? Through our parents? Our siblings? Our significant others? Do they know who we are? When they tell us who we are, do we always agree with them?

Hm. The process of ‘determining’, of ‘defining’ is a process of thought, of judgement, of rationalization and of stultification, whereby you take on the characteristics of a fossilized instant, projecting your past into your future through the medium of the present. Make sense? I’m who I am and I define I by who I was then not by who I am Now or who I will be along the continuous series of Nows.

All of this occurs beneath thought. It is programming, barely conscious and runs like a maintainance program beneath the web browser of our senses, and while we’re dealing with the detritus of the material world, watching the dust motes, listening to the cars and birds and thinking about where we went wrong in our lives, we are continuously sinking deeper and deeper into self-definition and further enslavement to the “Me’s, I’s and You’s” of the past, the manifestations of Ego that work remorselessly at self-preservation. Realizing that your ego structure has to maintain itself constantly by making us think that we are only human, and not super-human spirits on a journey through time and space, not at all bound by the confines of our bodies or this world.

If we realized that Truth in every moment, we would not be bound by anything or anybody. It is the Ego’s task to keep us grounded in this world, though – bound to the lives we’ve created – to whisper to us from the depths of the subconscious, “You can’t do that. You aren’t trained for that line of work. You’re too shy. Nobody can levitate. It’s impossible. C’mon. She’s too beautiful for you. He’s too smart. Don’t you remember what your daddy did to you when you were small? What your mama said about you? You’re nothing but a little slut, a big dummy, an ignorant boy and silly girl and you’ll never, ever, ever amount to a thing.”

Falling beneath the weight
of the past
peering out from under
words and deeds
woven in a tapestry of Life
despairing.

Black depression, pressing
down, breath harsh
wheezing, eyes dimming
tears flowing, falling
cold distaste regarding a
life less lived than
survived.

Taking control of your mind will be a form of warfare. It is used to being in charge, to defining who you are, to telling you what your goals are. Becoming familiar with what lies beyond the mind, then, becomes our paramount task. That powerful consciousness that observes, watches, calculates and stores energy and intention in a depthless resevoir of potential. Accessibility is gained through prayer, service and meditation. Prayer addresses the Divinity in Creation, the perceived Outer World. Service is an affront to the Ego, because the Ego is selfish, and so by serving others with a good will and true heart, the Ego retreats from the stage, leaving your individual portion of Divine Love shining like a star for all to feel, and bask in. And meditation familiarizes you with those inner shores of your spiritual sea, the waters that connect to the greater consciousness without, making what is within part of that greater whole.

The path can take us through a lifetime, or become the choice of a moment. Releasing the ‘stuff of the past’ depends upon how much we use it to define us in the present. Letting go of past loves, past pains, just the past is difficult, since we are who we are because of who we’ve been. Living life with the full spectrum of possibility available to you is such an inconceivable thing that we dare not even dream of what it means.

So take a moment right now, and do what your Ego does not want you to do. Dream, and realize that you are whoever you choose to be and that, whoever that is, is something and someone new upon the face of the Earth, living each moment in joy and the abandonment of wondrous and continuous birth, accessing all of the powers of the Divine to consciously co-create the Now.

Art and Experience: The Social Compact and Creativity


To what purpose do we share? Why do we write, draw and sing? What do our continual manifestations of creativity have to do with the world of our experience?

It is understood that we exist within Creation, or, the Material World. The 3-dimensional world of our senses (sight, sound, touch), plus time, the 4th dimension. It is also understood that, from the perspective of consciousness (mind, spirit, soul), this Creation is also Maya, a sanskrit word for the illusory world of the senses or, again, the Material World.

As an artist, graphic, textual and aural, I create in sight and sound, according to my feelings and thought-processes at the time of creation. An idea may birth itself in me and percolate for minutes, hours, days, weeks, months or years, and then come out as a beat, a song, a poem, an essay, a drawing, painting or graphic. It is indisputeable that, however that idea expresses itself upon leaving my thoughts and emotions and manifests materially upon whichever canvas I choose, the idea itself is not original, that it comes from some deeper well-spring that all humans share, which is what allows you to read what I write, listen to the words I sing or look at the picture I paint and feel something upon witnessing it.

My own, personal interpretation of a deeper Reality – as opposed to a surface reality – a deeper Truth – as opposed to a surface truth – that we all share, is what allows us all to resonate deeply to beautiful works of art, to empathize with an emotional song, or nod to words written which describe what we feel or think about something almost exactly. The closer you and I are in our backgrounds and cultures, the easier it is for me to translate those deeper currents of reality into forms that you can understand. The closer we are in immediate experience allows you to feel the emotional currents that may underly specific forms of expression, creating an immediate bond of sympathy that will transcend any other perceived differences.

But does that poem, that essay, that graphic, that song reflect what is Real? Or is it only a representation of something that is unreal? Is the work of art or literature meaningful beyond our experiences, or are our experiences the sum totality of our awareness?

Our experiences bind us not only to Creation, but also to each other. I used to always emphasize to my physical geography classes that our most fundamental and intimate relationship – post-birth – is not with each other, but with the world around us. We share Incarnation, as a human family, within the bounds of the Material World. We share, as a human family, the generic symbols and archetypes of collective unconsciousness. We share, as a human family, the range of emotions that cause us to smile or frown. We share, as a human family, the progressive and encompassing stricture of time and space. Therefore, we share, as a human family, all of the requirements necessary to create an illusion of reality that binds us, in turn, to the Material World.

So if this world is the product of a form of collective consensus regarding the nature and form of reality, what does that mean in terms of our expressions and the existence of a greater Reality? The double-slit experiment, which underlies and upholds the most basic assumptions of quantum physics has banished any doubt about the relationship of consciousness to matter. The act of observation changes the state of matter at the most fundamental level of aggregation, the quantum field. Mind over matter. If you don’t mind, it don’t matter.

Or, if you don’t think it, it’s not real. We create reality in each moment, then. We co-create this reality by agreement. We are trained from childhood in the conditions of this agreement and by the time we are adults, it is mostly an unconscious process. If you have children, or remember your own childhood, you can recall the process by which it occurred: the constant bombardment of questions leading to answers that reflect very subjective viewpoints held in common. As we age, we find confirmation of these early lessons in our friends and society in general, which further solidifies our perceptions and views of the world that can harden with age unless we consciously cultivate a mindstate of questioning, seeking and an openness to new ideas and experiences. The natural creativity of children becomes stultified, their opinions and viewpoints grow more rigid as the world loses its magic.

In fact, that selfsame creativity that we often associate with artists and the insane is the common birthright of all children. We think of artists as strange, eclectic and wierd because they don’t think like most people, because, generally speaking, they remain open to ideas and experiences. We don’t think of children as strange, eclectic and wierd because we associate their curiosity about the world and everything in it as a function of their youth and inexperience. Once children gain more experience, we expect them to settle down, to conform and to take on a more conventional and acceptable attitude that plants them firmly in the cultural ground tilled by their ancestors and elders, to themselves then become to propagators and protectors of our collective experience of reality.

As painters, as writers, as musicians, we play around with this experience of reality and find meaning in highlighting specific aspects of of our common heritage. We draw upon relationships, religion and social mores in our search for deeper meaning, using symbols and archetypes to awaken our deeper instincts and understandings of reality. And these, in turn, open the door into that deeper, underlying Reality, if only for the duration of that shared experience of art, music and writing. Being multi-dimensional in nature, we find comfort in the realization than we are more than the sum of our individuated experiences, in the knowledge that we share more in common with each other than that which binds us to our own lives and situations.

Life would be lonely without this ability, without this connection, the confirmation of which also substantiates our sense of belonging within the human community, the human family. We find comfort, then, in co-creating the illusion. In the telling and sharing of our stories, in whatever form, as our distant ancestors did as they huddled around the tenuous fires of primeval humanity, set against the encroaching darkness of an unknown and dangerous creation that threatened our very survival as a species.

The illusion is the necessary condition of incarnation. Art reminds us that we are in it together. Artists are the spiritual warriors of the Material World, pointing us back to that which is true beyond our own experiences. Confirmation that there is more, and that, whatever that “more” really is, we are an integral part of its expression.

Nationalism and Spirituality: As above so below


This body I inhabit was born in the United States of America, In the late 1960s, to parents born but also raised in the big sky and red dirt country of the lower Panhandle region of West Texas. Our people are the descendents of enslaved Africans, galvanized by intimate, cultural interactions with both Europeans and Indigenous Americans, creating a singular and genetically consistent sub-racial/ethnic population identified as African-American. My own specific indoctrination into American culture is as a member of the generational cohort designated Gen-X, the child of an Air Force Veteran, being raised across the country and the world surrounded by the trappings of militarism and nationalism in a concentrated and volatile format. Being thusly sired, it was no stretch for me to enter the Army myself in the late 1980s culiminating in the First Gulf War-Desert Storm in 1991, whereupon the completion of my tour of duty found me more than ready to resume the formal aspect of my educational career, which I came to the end of 15 years later. It was only then that I formally embarked in a more concentrated manner upon the individualized spiritual journey that, earlier on, had characterized my life as a parallel thread of interest, but that has, over time, come to define the middle years of my life as the primary focus of my personal endeavors.

For most of my life, questions of religion and spirituality were answered within the confines of the Baptist and non-denominational Protestant Christian churches, where the perceived and affected africanisms, remnants of the continental genetic inheritance of an enslaved peoples familarized me with the intimate spiritual nature of African-descended folk, including such storied psychic capabilities as speaking in tongues(glossolalia), getting the spirit(possession), and the inherent and undeniable power of souls in synch expressing God-consciousness through the invocation of The Word put to music and the pounding, throbbing rhythms of the beat, either by drum, feet or both. The power of raw emotionality, the ability to leave the body and experience reality as Other than ordinary – as expressed equally in the synthetic religions of Santeria and Vodun – a cultural as well as a racial inheritance of the Middle Passage, known to Africanists the world across as the Maafa.

 The contradictory nature of spirituality and nationalism confront all spiritual seekers at some point of their personal evolution. And yet, our specific circumstances, our dharmic inheritance as it were, serves a purpose in the unfolding of our spiritual destinies as nationless Citizens of the World. Coming to grips with one’s Past and integrating it with one’s Present is a key component in the journey towards Transcendence of the material plane of existence, which can mean many things to many people. For me, personally, Bush’s War on Terror and Obama’s War on Liberty aftermath has left me struggling, caught within the grips of an extreme case of cognitive dissonance as my training and upbringing as a member of the American Warrior Class(AWC) surges within my mind. Memories of soldiering, the endless repetitions of the National Anthem, Pledge of Allegience and Star Spangled Banner during my early years combine with the direct military indoctrination of my young adulthood and the subsequent, rough cameraderie of soldiers, as well as the life and loves that have formed an indeliable impression upon me in the Past have made me the man that I am in the Present. I would not be who I am now, if it were not for who I was then.

When I was stationed in Germany during the late 80s and early 90s we used to call the United States the World. When someone’s tour of duty ended, they were headed back to the World. For us, everything that we could ever want was back home in the States, the World. I rather expect that soldiers, wherever they are stationed, continue to do so. In fact, I have seen movies of Vietnam where this convention is honored, and it signifies the way that soldiers think of the United States, of home, even though, technically speaking, their deployment across the planet might more accurately be considered an experience of the World. Sentimentality knows no bounds of logic or experience, it seems.

The expression of this dichotomous viewpoint, the struggle between the World and one’s current circumstances and understandings is the stuff of spiritual elevation. In each moment, it is possible for us to let goof the Past, to die to who we were in order to become who we are meant to be. As an example, it is as if there were a grand template of Rahkyt out there somewhere, a vision of perfection and peace whereby I realize my inherent probabilities, manifest at the highest level of Being, the possibilities of my spirit and my soul. A similar vision exists for all of us, regardless of our stations in life, or our individual experiences, because we are all One, connected at every level of interaction, our actions and reactions being determined by the chaotic effects of stimuli too many and diverse to specify ranging from an vast number of options spanning both space and time, creating matrices of chance and probability that result in our individualized Destinies, sending us upon life-journeys of perfection and peace, despite the emotional highs and lows of illusory materialism that distract us from what is really going on, beneath the surface drama of life and its attendent trials and tribulations.

And yet, this illusory materialism is the very stuff of life, isn’t it. It is the daily grind, the emotional relationships we share the history, and the cultural and social milieu that we inhabit forms the majority proportion of our perception, given our tendency as socially conditioned Westerners to elevate the external, material conditions of our shared realities over the internal, spiritual conditions of that selfsame reality. Which brings me back to Nationalism.

It almost goes without saying that the connection of body and mind, and some aspects of the spirit, to the collective of humanity is of necessity a mandatory expression of Oneness and that Nationalism, even considering all of its ills, is reflective of this subconscious desire of disparate groups of humanity to express this reality, given their shared ethnic and cultural affiliations. Group-mind, mob behavior, both have an aspect of shared consciousness at the level of the human sub-conscious, binding individuals together in ways that are scientifically documented and verifiable through varied methods utilized by the mass media, corporations and governments in order to direct and control populations.

So on the individual level, for those of us seeking elevation and death to the Self, it become incumbent upon us to examine all of our previously unexamined habits and beliefs in order to determine what istrue and real in our lives, what is Ego and what is Soul, and sublimate our tendencies toward the ease of groupthink accordingly. For me, personally, the heartache and pain of American soldiers fighting and dying on foreign soil is a visceral experience to me because I feel them on an individual level, know what they are going through to an extent and recognize what it took and takes for them to live the lives that they have chosen.

On the other hand, because of my empathic abilities and somewhat specialized, geographic knowedge I can feel and intuit the pain of those in Iraq, Afghanistan or Libya, as they are subjugated to a foreign power, Palestinians and Israelis fighting for their lives and land, Iranians, Egyptians, Syrians and Kurdistanis seeking to make sense out of the shifting, political sands. All of these groups change, evolve, merging and interacting on a super-personal level as collective, psychic entities embroiled upon multiple levels of interaction, sending tendrils of potentiality out into the aether which respond to the collective intent and desire of nations and people across the globe, all connected within the miasma of Gaia’s aetheric emanations, collectively, as macro-level expressions of the diversity of lifeforms within our own bodies, working and living together as individuals and organizations for the evolution of the whole.

This body I inhabit is formed of Stardust born of Earth, third planetary body from Sol, one solar system among many clustered within the Milky Way galaxy, reflecting the Infinite Array, expressive of the expansive nature of both matter and consciousness and the continuing evolution of the multiverse, transcending time and space within the remorseless imperative of the evolutionary process occuring within the soul of each moment, born anew with each thought and subsequent action at every level of Creation Become. My experiences and genetic programming, explicit towards the manifestation of my own personal destiny as a microcosm of our shared, collective destiny, the fulfillment of an imperative born far beyond my, or our, capacity to conceive of in its awesome and terrifying immensity.


The Zone: An epiphany of consciousness


Self-actualizationthe idea of a hierarchy of needs suggests that the desire to fulfill one’s potential is the final cause of motivated behavior. Few people become self-actualizing according to this view of motivation. Those who do, generally in their fifties, are seen as possessing a similar set of ideals, values, and attitudes.

Transcendental: a. Concerned with the a priori or intuitive basis of knowledge as independent of experience.

b. Asserting a fundamental irrationality or supernatural element in experience.

38. Do thou fighting for the sake of fighting, without considering happiness or distress, loss or gain, victory or defeat-and by so doing you shall never incur sin. Chapter 2, Bhagavad-Gita (as it is) translated and explicated upon by His Divine Grace A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada.

The latter, from the Bhagavad-Gita, which is the text of choice for those adherents of Hinduism and also those who observe the tenets of Krishna-consciousness, who have also been called, sometimes derogatorily, Hare Krishnas, and who also engage in what has become a sect-less practice known as Transcendental Meditation.

While reading the above passage I experienced an epiphany on the scale of my first viewing of The Secret, another confirmation that this time period in my life is to be one of a deepening of previous understandings and an opportunity to take the higher road, fully and finally, rather than continuing to consciously remain plateaued because of ingrained fear of leaving my Self behind.

For those who don’t know, the Bhagavad-Gita is the story of Krishna and Arjuna, on the battlefield of Kurukshetra. Krisha, the Supreme Personality of Godhead has incarnated into Arjuna’s extended family and has chosen to be Arjuna’s charioteer in the final battle between warring factions of that selfsame family.  Arjuna, facing a battle as a result of which he is expected to kill his friends, family members and mentors, despairs and falls prey to fear and attachment, both qualities that Krishna, the Supreme Personality of Godhead spends the entire text exhorting against.

It is an amazing story and a sublime treaties upon the ideas of karma and dharma, one’s cause/effect relationship with the cosmos and one’s duty to one’s family group, culture and world. The quote that leads directly into this exploration, which is actually a reminiscence that I’ve touched upon before and which is a key realization in the journey toward self-actualization. And so I present an extended version of that story, including further contextual analysis.

Learning new things has always come easy to me. A Blessing from God that has allowed me to pick up and hone talents that have helped me to shape my life and express my interests, beliefs and thoughts in a form that people seem to resonate to. At the age of twelve, I learned to play the Happy Days theme on my saxaphone so well that none of my peers would believe that I’d learned it just by listening to it on television.  In 8th grade, a young Jewish boy named Joel and I used to improvise together, he on clarinet and I on sax. We particularly enjoying jamming to that old standard, The Boogie Woogie Bugle Boy of Company C, upon completion of which Joel would be left giggling uncontrollably and I, laughing along with him, also enjoying the fact that I’d finally found somebody else who could play like I could.

Enforced practice in church, jazz, marching and pep bands allowed me to retain my skills with the saxophone, as years of drawing comic book heroes, learning perspective and the art of design allowed me to also bring these skills into adulthood. Younger years spent playing T-ball, flag football and baseball cultivated an athletic sense within me as well, although a hiatus between 5th and 9th grade reflected a time period of intense personal and spiritual growth that coincided with the onset of puberty and the resultant emotional, psychic and physical growth.

A year of JV football sophomore year and JV basketball junior year reawakened my love of athletics. A spring and summer spent practicing in the Fairchild AFB gym placed me firmly in the Varsity Basketball camp as a starter during senior year then, leading to a 2nd place finish in our League and MVP status for me. That spring, I ran track for the first time, just because my Art teacher, Mr. Cicero, was also the Track coach and he urged me to.

I competed in the high jump, triple jump, long jump and 110 high hurdles.Went to State in the high and triple jumps, finishing 3rd in the high jump at 6’5, a record which, although not the highest or best leap ever, stood for 20 years. The entire season, Mr. Cicero lamented our lost time, ‘if only’ I’d've gone out for track during my sophomore and junior years as well.

Which brings me, naturally, back to the Bhagavad-Gita. When the above quote is written, it is Krishna, the Supreme Personality of Godhead speaking, remonstrating Arjuna for refusing to fight. It was his destiny, Krishna exhorted, and for him to refuse to fight because his relatives were on the other side would be worse than him dying on the field of battle. They were dead already, Krishna argued, unarguably so, since nobody ever really dies, the Soul being eternal in nature. Furthermore, to live as a coward and lose all respect was much worse than dying as a hero, thereby fulfilling his dharmic and caste responsibilities. As a Ksatriya, a warrior-protector, killing in the name of Krishna was his chosen dharmic path to a Heavenly reward.

The Hindu caste system, with all of its negatives, is, at its heart, based upon spiritual rather than racial standards. Originally, the term Aryan meant one who was spiritually righteous, filled with light, divine, strong and courageous. Over centuries and millenia, these underlying principles have become subsumed by the collected racial animus of dark versus light, a reversal that is discussed in an extremely comprehensive fashion in Marimba Ani’s seminal text, Yurugu: An African-Centered Critique of European Cultural Thought and Behavior. 

We are all born within a certain context. Our lives lead us, inevitably toward the fulfillment or the renunciation of those contextual events that make up the days, weeks, months and years of our lives. Our ability to fulfill those duties is reflected by the choices that we make, whether they be for the better or for the worse and regardless of our choice, our decisions are made within the greater context of our individual, family, cultural, ethnic, racial and greater-human dharmic narratives, and it is our decision whether or not we are going to fulfill our dharmic duties or whether we are going to renounce all responsibility and take the path of the Lone Ascetic and Wanderer, the innermost, contemplative path. Self-actualization refers to our ability to either fulfill or not fulfill these dharmic duties to the best of our abilities, and to manifest the skills and talents that we’ve been blessed with for the greatest glory of Divinity.

So during that same summer I spent at the Fairchild AFB gym preparing for my senior year, I was also break-dancing in the parks and the teen club Players and Spectators Jr., in Spokane, Washington, practicing and battling with my boys, Roger Davis and Spencer Alexander. As a team, we had some routines that we’d take to the parks – Spencer only sometimes, because he was a bit younger than Roger and I – and battle the kids from the city. We danced for money and girls, and, being teens with few responsibilities other than our own well-being, there was no shortage of either.

An opportunity arose in the form of a break-dancing contest for Jay Jacobs Clothing Store, which we entered as a team, from which I was picked, along with 15 others, to be in a commercial, which ran at the end of the summer through the spring of 1985. Another ‘skillset’ with which I was able to manifest artistic expression, albeit in a commercial and self-absorbed fashion.

Nevertheless, each talent, cultivated for the pure joy of engagement and competition; of offense and defense - putting the ball through the hole, hitting it with the bat, dodging the defense - of timing - perfecting form in jumping and leaping - of the thickness of lines and curves - intensities of shade – of pianissimo and forte chord progressions and harmonics, of windmilling and locking, flipping and spinning, of achievement for the sake of achievement itself, and not any material or social awards. Learning, for learning’s sake.  

According to His Divine Grace A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada, the above quote regarding Arjuna’s refusal to fight is one of the final exhortations in that chapter that concludes Krishna’s opening discourse on the nature of the Atomic-Soul and the Super-Soul. The chapters which follow continue to expound upon the natures of dharma and karma, the meaning of life, the magic worlds and universes of spirit and soul as well as the nature of HeavenAtman and Nirvana.

I find many correspondences in the teachings of the Bhagavad-Gita and Christianity, from its ideas of karma (sowing and reaping the whirlwind/children responsible for the sins of the fathers, etc.) and dharma (giving unto Caesar what is his/utilizing talents for the glory of God), to the physical manifestation of Krishna in human form, as Jesus was also considered to be God in human form, was born and died, vacated the flesh and returned again to prove his eternal and abiding nature.

While there are very obvious differences on the face of it, culturally speaking, the eternal nature of the deepest teachings coincide at their very essence, which is self-actualization. As Jesus the Christ exhorted his disciples, and taught them through their failings to ‘become like him’, so Krishna, the Supreme Personality of Godhead exhorted Arjuna that he was the All, and that each aspect of Creation – from the mineral to the animal kingdom – was some small part (atomic) of Him, conscious and eternally existing.

Even the concept of one life for one person, that Christianity speaks of, finds some expression in the eternal individuality of each Soul, whichKrishna-consciousness details with some authority. Although the question of reincarnation is firmly rejected by orthodox Christianity (to include both protestant and catholic denominations), the individuality of each soul is assured – in Judaism, Christianity and Islam as well – even past the end of Incarnation – in Hinduism and the Krishna-consciousnessmovement - and the ascension of perfected souls to the spiritual planets and universes beyond human ken.


After a year of track at Morehouse College
 (where I reached 6’10 in the high jump) - and which is also a blog in and of itself - and a semester at San Antonio College I joined the Army and went to Basic Training at Fort Jackson in Columbia, South Carolina and Advanced Individual Training (AIT), at the signal center at Fort Gordon, in Augusta, Georgia. I did well on the Army Services Vocational Aptitude Battery (ASVAB) and chose to train as a Single Channel Radio Operator, which was a combat military occupational specialty (MOS 31C) and that also gave me access to both the GI Bill and the Army College fund. Excelling in that training (Honor Graduate), I was also chosen to learn International Morse code (IMC), which was an additional skill identifier. That course was a month long and consisted of sitting at a desk wearing headphones and armed with a morse code tapper of Vietnam-era vintage, as had been the radio and teletype equipment that I’d trained on for the initial operator’s skillset, I proceeded to embark upon an amazing inner journey.

The training regime was relaxed. In the first week, we were responsible for tapping out and being able to interpret 3 groups, repeating what we heard in our headphones. Each group consisted of 5 dits and dashes (didadadittydadadittyda) that represented numbers and letters. The second week, we were responsible for 3 more, and so on, until the final number of groups we had to learn was 10, in order to pass the course and become certified in IMC.

The first week was simple enough. Three groups, fine. I was along with everyone else with the class, progressing normally, we made our quota. And then, late in the second week, something happened.

I’ve attempted to describe the actual experience I am writing of here previously, but those attempts have been inadequate to the task of truly encompassing what happened that day. To just say it, I progressed from 3 to 12 groups in the space of 1 hour. The Sergeant, who had been teaching there for 12 years, could not, would not believe I’d never learned morse code before.

I remember the room was dark, our desks side by side and the groups blended together like a song. One moment, I was listening and tapping code, understanding some and having to think to get the meanings of other letters and numbers, engaging in the reminscence and recognition pattern that typifies all rote memorization learning methods. At some point, I entered a mode of reverie, where the dits and dashes were audible as echoes only as my mind blurred the distinction and what had been audial became also graphical and there was an actual, physical bending of my mental space as if I’d flexed a previously unknown muscle and switched over to another mode where, suddenly, there appeared a depiction of  morse code in a perfect pattern of resonance and harmonics. It was as if I’d entered a hidden space that was infinite in nature, I remember the sensation of openness, impossibily deep within my mind, of texture and depth beyond my current needs available and waiting for input. As I was listening and experiencing this, my fingers moved faster and I instantly knew the code, could see the code in front of my mind’s eye, and utilized this precious insight to cement my understanding. Coming out of  it, that unknown muscle flexed once again, leaving me drained and confused, but excited beyond belief. Watching the Instructor walking over to me looking just as confused, was confirmation that something strange had indeed just occured.

After that initial jump, I knew Morse code and finally ended up at a speed of 28 groups, the last two weeks of the course being spent practicing and just increasing my speed. The next closest person was 14.

I’ve never returned to that space since. I’ve also never been challenged like that, since. But, knowing it exists, having experienced it, is like a tantalizing glimpse into possibility, into the potential of the human mind to access supposedly superhuman capabilities in order to accomplish tasks that have been thought heretofor unachievable.

As i was reading the above quote from the Bhagavad-Gita, this memory returned to me, and with it, a rushing onslaught of similar memories, of times where I’d learned something quickly - simply for the joy of learning - only to lose it again from lack of practice and neglect. What typified each and every one of these experiences was the joy of the moment, of concentrating to the point where everything else was lost. No thought of material gain, of getting paid for completing an article, a paper, a piece of artwork, of achieving honors for being the best or the greatest, of trophies, of accolades, of anything other than the sheer joy of doing it, of living it, of engagingTranscendental Being itself as a tool in the pursuit of self-actualization.

I recognize the possible affront offered by this essay. But I cannot and will not apologize for who I am and what my experiences have been because they are mine, and they have made me the man that I am. I am manifesting, with all glory given to Divinity, a potential that we all have, and that we all make real in our lives - to a greater or lesser degree - depending upon our own proclivities and potentials, which have been shaped by our life experiences and our individuated zodiacal natures. What we are capable of doing is so much more than what we generally allow ourselves to do, or even to believe can be done. The human mind and body are the most amazing energetic and physical creations upon this planet. To seek to discover their capabilities and manifest them in our lives should be among the greatest goals of a lifetime.

The Law of Attraction assures of us the multiverse’s complicity in the achievement of our individual destinies. The key component of creative visualization and prayer is the ability to associate emotivity, vision and intention in a manner that colludes with our destiny and brings us into a place where we are utilizing our talents in the expression of Divinity, as we are each atomic expressions of the super-soul of which we all form an intergral part. Divinity divining Itself, as it were.

Use your talents for God, Krishna, Allah, Oldumare, Legba, Yemaya, Buddha, or whomever your personal diety is. Be thankful for your gifts, and share them equitably. Be sure of your present and future paths, and know that Divinity is within us all, watching ever, loving fully and understanding us each, with all of our failings, neuroses and problems. No matter our current paths, or the extent to which we feel we’ve doomed ourselves to eternal hell, the potential to achieve what we were born to achieve remains real.

Know that. Believe it. And then live it.

The Paradox of Being


There is a great paradox that lies at the center of Being. This paradox confronts us daily and is so pervasive as to be nigh invisible. This paradox underlies our every thought and action, our every dream and desire, our every regret and trauma. How to live in the world, and not be of the world? How to love those close to you, and love everyone else as well? How to live your truth, and also live Truth? How to be yourself, and yet be greater than yourself?

There is a great paradox that lies at the center of Being. These are questions that haunt us each beyond our awareness of the haunting. They are so deeply ingrained within the human condition that unless you make the conscious effort to bring them to the fore, you will lead a life characterized by vague discontent and a certain knowledge that somehow you are not living to the fullness of your capacity, that there is something missing, something vastly important and something that could answer all o the great questions that we as humans ask at every level of our being, at every stageof our conscious and unconscious development.

There is a great paradox that lies at the center of Being. This paradox causes the sun to rise, the birds to sing, the clouds to float across the skies. This paradox leads to world wars and famine, to incest and abuse, to murder and perversion most foul. This paradox leads us to ask how could God be so cruel, leads us to cry out to the heavens in anger, despair and pain, railing against remorseless destiny and the depravations of humanity, the depths of evil and the vagaries of life’s twists and turns. And yet beauty and love shine through, peace and the soul’s fulfilment birth epiphanies of indescribable delight, transcending light and elevating souls beyond material conditions and into the eternal, pulsating essence of the Now.

There is a great paradox that lies at the center of Being. This paradox calls for me to love you by setting you free, rather than holding on tightly.This paradox calls for you to understand his pain while letting go of the pain she caused you. This paradox calls for laughter in the midst of tears, for love in the presence of hate, for giving in the presence of loss, for rising in the presence of a fall. The dimensions of this paradox are so confusing, so oppositional to all that we hold to be personally and culturally true, that the vast majority of people in our western cultures deny it’s effect upon their lives, deny it’s validity in the human experience even, prefering to approach it’s world and multiverse-spanning implications from the safety of illusional objectivity, describing dichotomies of opposition, philosophies of evolution and natural selection, scientific pronouncements of quantum realities that describe what the scientists of the soul have known every since humanity was birthed and throughout our expansion out into the rest of the world.

There is a great paradox that lies at the center of Being. Succinctly spoken then, this paradox is the crux of our purpose, the manifestion of our destinies, the  joining of opposites in the creation of a whole, best expressed visually by the yin yang symbol of male and female, light and dark, each containing the essence of the other, eternally and diametrically opposed, and yet, together, containing the whole of existence, possessing completeness, being totality in eternal syncopation, a dance of twin souls, essences combine inextricably, transcending dichotomy, bordering upon and encompassing the infinite, containing All, being All, spanning, All.

There is a great paradox that lies at the center of Being. We live the paradox every day. Should we follow our hearts, or our minds, when they disagree? Should we be true to our immediate families, or to the human family, when we have important decisions to make? Are our own concerns more important than the concerns of those who are not intimately connected to us in a personal manner. Do we hold responsibility to the world outside of our immediate environs, our cultures or our countries? Are we related only to those who look like us, or do we have family in the farthest parts of the world?

There is a great paradox that lies at the center of Being. These questions can only be answered within. In fact, the answer comes with the asking, we have only to listen. To act upon the inevitable answer is to immediately expand one’s horizons, to take on a greater vision of Self and destiny that, of necessity, broaden’s one’s understanding of life and makes the paltry details of material existence seem much less absorbing and negatively effective. Becoming a Citizen of the World is a choice that confronts the paradox of living, the paradox of human existence. The choices we have are infinite. All paradoxes are reconciled by illumination, the light banishes all darkness.

There is a great paradox that lies at the center of Being. We are the parodox. We manifest eternity with every thought. Our very existence as material beings within a greater, immaterial void of Becoming exemplifies love made present and real, awareness born of prescience, infinite divinity expressed, parambulations of God’s whimsy seeking salvation in the myriad experiences of life, living every, single possible permutation in order to fulfill the promise of Creation as the expression of the All.

There is a great paradox that lies at the center of Being. Going within silences all voices and allows us to hear the song of our souls. Going without allows us to hear the chorus of our brother and sister souls, singing in counterpoint harmony with our own. Centering your consciousness, simultaneously being both within and without is living in the world, without being of the world. The paradox of dichotomous existence is solved by transcending feelings, intellect and thought processes by integrating body, mind, spirit and soul, holistically expressing the full gamut of human capability in the pursuit of our individual and collective destinies. The paradox that lies at the center of Being is, therefore, life itself.

The solving of this paradox, then, can only be the process of living, in all of its glorious complexity.


The Falls of Eternity: The void of potential and material manifestation


Can you imagine a time when thought was undifferentiated?

Well, consider the possibility that such was once the case.

That, once upon a time, many, many suns ago, in fact, before there were any suns at all, there was no you or I, no here or there, no up or down, in or out. That all that there was, in the Entirety of Creat-no, wait. There wasn’t even a Creation, yet! That all there was, in the entirety of this Formless, Void of Potential, was Awareness. Not even thought had been separated yet! Omniscience was eternal and infinite, there was nothing beyond. Nothing within, or without.

Until, at some gradual point, Awareness became aware of Itself. And with that, came the experience of differentiation. With this understanding came the realization of complete and utter pervasivity, of Being and expansiveness that was Formless in nature, and yet totally present. It was everywhere and nowhere! It was everything and nothing! Omnipresence awoke to its own presence and power, and, by so doing, separated Itself from the entirety, that formless Void of Potential in which it had been gestated and, in an instant, the first Word was spoken. And with the speaking of that first, holy Word, a Big Bang occured that resulted in a further differentiation from Formlessness into Form and a simultaneously multiversal and dimensional descent into matter arising from pure consciousness to manifestation upon the material planes. Greater and greater forms of etheric consciousnes descended into matter, achieving density and mass, limiting omni-consciousness and perception, savoring the change, the viscerality of experience that resulted from this Great Experiment.

But, it was not that smooth, or simple, was it. Such things never are. Before that Big Bang occurred, Hierarchies of Powers and Principalities evolved as Consciousness continued to coalesce and differentiate Itself from the Void of Potential and descend further through the etheric, vibratory levels of dimensions in ever-decreasing collectivities at every stage approaching material manifestation excepting only that final, precipitous descent into Form. That last choice was made after the coalescence of separate Collectivities of Mass Consciousnesses that were distinct in and of themselves, creating vibrational energy families, if you will, formed to abide and rule in sharply distinct dimensional levels, interacting with each other and permeating the bubble of consciousness - still and always ensconced within that infinite Void of Potential - yearning for experience and curious as to the possibilities of even more radical interaction and differentiation.

Experience calls, ever. And, at some point, it was decided by different Collectivities that they would enter into Form, into the lowest densities of consciousness. Materially incomprehensible negotiations between some of these vast and sublime Soul Groups resulted in material ramifications that limit the world of our senses as we continue to re-enact the drama of agreements made Eons ago between Collectivities innimcal in nature, perhaps even competitive – or warring – and yet desireous of a shared experience of Incarnation resulting in the evolution of the All, through the experience of the One. Many “Ones”, that is, each a member of a greater Soul Group, interacting within the context of their own unconsciousness awareness of that membership, and yet fulfilling the conditions of Destiny through the actions of each Soul Group’s individual components, or members.

As above, so below.

If this ancient paen, a truism of cosmic unity, holds, then it only stands to reason that our most sacred beliefs do not tell the entire story. If there is Good and Evil on the material plane of Creation, why should there not be Good and Evil – or, altruism and malignant narcissism - at the higher etheric vibrational levels? Perhaps the terminology is a distraction, one that draws away from the underlying abstract, scientific concepts. If there is Dichotomous Opposition at all levels of nature, why should this not also be so at every dimensional level leading back from Form, into Formlessness?

Since Formlessness only exists within the Void of Potential, then every dimensional level leading to and from that original state of consciousness reflects the descent of Awareness from Unawareness, of Consciousness from Unconsciousness. The movement, or evolution of Creation, then, is cyclical in nature. From the original state of undifferentiation, to some future state of undifferentiation, with the infinite array of multiversal and dimensional experiences of material incarnation manifesting the entire range of possibilities inherent within the Void of “Creative” Potential, as Consciousness itself yearns for unconsciousness, as Individuality yearns for Collectivity, as I yearn for You.

What if this is true? Could you imagine what a world it would be? What a universe it would be? What a multiverse it would be? Multiple-if-not-Infinite dimensions and densities interacting, each of us playing a part chosen far back into an inconceivably distant past Reality, in order to fulfill the conditions necessary to create an equally inconceivably distant future Reality. Time being a condition of material Incarnation, Past, Present and Future are visible simultaneously from without. The Material World, then, is like a bubble, or marble, in space, and to Soul Groups and Entities looking in upon the goings-ons within, all strands of 4th-dimensional and 3rd-density time and space are visible simultaneously. It is an uncomfortable concept, is it not? Thinking of ourselves as being exposed in our perceived privacy and material isolation, to extra-dimensional Groups and Beings that see and understand – perhaps even more than we do – our every thought and action, past, present and future? Like 2-dimensional flatlanders seem to us, our 4-dimensional perception of existence is limited, when compared to that of the Entities residing in the higher dimensional frequencies.

To those Collectivities and Entities spying upon our doings here, within the material universes of conscious manifestation, perhaps communication with us often occurs at a level beneath or above consciousness, moving into the realm of conscious perception only at those junctures when seeming synchronicities result in fortuitous occurrences, or even negative happenstances that make some sort of an impact upon our lives. Perhaps interaction with these Soul Groups occurs within the stream of chatter that arises from our egoic minds, and we find it difficult to distinguish between the noises, unable to separate what is truly our own inner voice, and what might be a communication from elsewhere, or elsewhen. Perhaps these interactions are formalized with automatic writing, mediumship and ouija boards, and, perhaps, the intentions of those doing the communicating are not always in what we, in our peculiar and limited manner, might consider to be our own best interests.

The mythopoeic era of Humanity, often called the Golden Age, is distinct in that, during this time period – an Age of Gods, Goddesses, Heroes and Monsters - people spoke to Divine Beings directly. People saw the Gods and Goddesses, interacted with them. The nights were filled with horrible creatures and fear and dread were not inculcated purposefully, as we do today, with our scary movies and pathological curiosities toward the perverse. Magic was in the air, the Fairies (Sidhe, Tuatha de Danaan) lived on the Earth and in the Earth, with Dwarfs, Gnomes, Druids and Witches behind and in every rock and tree, hiding under every hill and sneaking across every dale. Perhaps the side-effects of a burgeoning earthly population – and a corresponding increase in collective, psychic detritus or background noise -taken alongside the increased static of various families of electromagnetic radiation pervading the ether have reduced our ability to sense the influx of extra-dimensional communications.

Perhaps the solidification of cultural mentifacts and sociofacts have also reduced our ability to “see” things that are outside of our frame of reference. I am reminded of the tale of the Shaman who witnessed the coming of the Europeans to the shores of the Caribbean, who walked to the beach day after day, looking out, knowing something was there, until, one day, the ships that had been anchored offshore for days appeared as if by magic, finally coaxed forth by his gradual and systematic breaking-down of unconscious cultural boundaries, allowing him to see something that was totally outside of his, or anyone else in his culture’s, ken. If a Grey, one of the little, big-headed aliens of popular mythology, stood right beside you, or appeared outside of your window one night and you opened your eyes and looked right at it, would you be able to see it? Would you believe the evidence of your own eyes? Think about it carefully, before you answer.

With the Precession of the Equinoxes and the continuous movement of galaxies through our own universe – again, one of an infinite array – the tendencies of consciousness reflect a simultaneous movement across intergalactic space ranging across a time span of 25,800 years – which itself is only one of 12 aspects of a greater, 309,600 year cycle -  during which time consciousness expands and contracts as we move also between the 12 Houses of Zodiacal Precession, continuing our outward expansion as the relationship between our own particular galactic spiral retains its relationship to other galaxies, solar systems and celestial bodies, maintaining etheric roles and promises made between consciousness Collectivities those many, many Eons ago.

primummobileLg.jpgOur experiences, as individuals, are diverse. And yet, there is a similarity, a connection between us all that links us as One, that has been explored psychologically and spiritually, acknowledged, its ramifications considered, expounded upon, its implications far-ranging. The viscerality of experience connects us and yet separates us as we coexist within the shifting boundaries of perceptive constraints that comprise this shared illusion of individuality. There is no doubt that we all share a genetic heritage and there should also be no doubt that we share a spiritual heritage. The Imperatives of Incarnation demand the expression of difference. And yet, there is so much more to Reality than what we see, hear and feel. Those vibrational changes in the atmosphere that we sense before a storm or in the quiet of a room, that quality of alone-ness that might change in an instant, raising hairs on the backs of our necks, causing us to crane our necks searching the room for the entry of another, those feelings that we get when we consider a course of action, either affirming or denying our intellectual decision-making processes, causing us to squirm in discomfort as we battle within ourselves to come to a decision, or not.

Awareness increases as Knowledge of Self does the same. Deciding to seek after Self-Realization is a choice to seek after the Path Less Traveled, and  to commit one’s Self to seeking after the Truth, no matter the cost. For most, ignorance and unconsciousness is preferable. Living knowing that life is but a dream, and that we can drift, slumbering, merrily dreaming as we course down the twisting, branching, River of Incarnation to approach the Falls of Eternity, then to plunge, eyes wide shut, into the unknown mist of implacable Destiny, is but one choice in an infinite array. One that we make knowingly, at every level, despite its ramifications in the material world of our own Self and Group-Immolation. Such is the state of this precious life we live, gained at the cost of payments made in flesh and blood, pain and pleasure, hate and love.

Again, as above, so below.

Consider that, as you contemplate sleeping through life, unknowing.

Love, Light and Predation: The tree of the knowledge of good and evil


Gurdjieff speaks of 4 ways. The way of the Fakir, the way of the Monk, the way of the Yogi and a 4th way. The way of the Fakir is total body control, the way of the Monk is total emotional control. The way of the Yogi is total mind control and the 4th way is a combination of the first 3.

In the religious life of most Americans, it is the way of the Monk that resonates the most. It is the way of our religious practices. Christianity deals primarily with the emotional body, and we see our world and our spiritual evolution in the context of feeling close to G-d, and feeling the love of G-d and demonstrating that love to those around us. We see our pain and heartaches as trials and tribulations, as ways by which G-d tests our souls and purifies us on the crucible of experience. A Monk dedicates himself to the glorification of G-d and the mortification of the body. Since all is contained within the Bible, intellectual pursuit is discouraged and prayer and dedicated reading, the method of coming to know G-d. G-d is in Heaven above, the devil is in Hell and the battle for souls is the cause for all horror on Earth.

Even as religious traditions give way to new understandings of eternal truths, many Seekers retain aspects of their original faith. From those who come from Christianity, the way of the Monk has been the path of their own personal experience. Surging past traditional understandings of bible-based Christian devotion, these individuals are gnostic in nature, seeking G-d within rather than without, and filled with the desire to distill the essence of Goodness from Divine experience, resulting in a holistic philosophy of Love, Light and Oneness, surrounding one’s Self with positive energy and sending out this energy to others, or to the world in general. This emanation of love radiates out into the environment much like the sun and its rays, affecting all around it. Or, if this energy is sent to a particular person, it pervades their emotional and mental space, augmenting whatever personal and external energetic sources might be affecting them also, in that moment.

I spoke here in great detail regarding energy propagation and siphoning. What I did not speak of, is that it is not just other people that siphon energy from us. In the Don Juan series, by Carlos Castaneda, the Mexican Sorcerer speaks in horrendous detail regarding the depredations of the Predator mind. The subjugation of human awareness and potential to the will of higher density entities. There is also the possibility of energy siphoning by Earth-bound spirits that accompany people upon their daily journeys. In the book of Matthew, Jesus cast many demons out of a man, and they retreated into pigs, who then drowned themselves in the sea. Stories of spirit possessions and poltergeists abound in the modern day. There seems to be little doubt that something beyond the ken of modern thought, quite strange and perhaps malevolent is going on all around and within each of us, as well.

The requirements of our daily lives are often enough to leave us breathless by nightfall and yet there are other, higher or lower demands upon our energy quotients. Channeling, Ouija boards, prayer and meditative states open conduits to these higher and lower influences and, unless great care is taken, can lead to negative consequences in the lives of the unwary. Releasing energy haphazardly, or without defined purposes, is, then, a dangerous proposition, considering the nature of Creation and the existence of Predators, be they human, ethereal or otherwise. Keep in mind that we ourselves, as humans, are Predators, and that the Law of Karma pervades the lower levels of consciousness.

In the Garden, the serpent slyly tricked Adam and Eve into eating of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil, not the Tree of the Knowledge of Good. By concentrating only upon the Good, then, we minimize G-d and ignore a full half of the dichotomous spectrum, opening up ourselves and our lives to the depredations of Evil in the form of emotions, other people and events that combine to teach us exactly what we need to know to integrate the dark and the light, rather than focusing upon one to the detriment of the other. Filling one’s Self with love – ignoring the hate – non-reaction to negativity or forgiving without regard for propriety, or even assailing the Free Will of others by sending them unrequested energy, all can have unintended, and possibly calamitous, reprecussions.

We each choose a Path, and those who choose a Path out of the Light do so of their own Free Will, and it is Right and Good that it is so, giving the dichotomous nature of material incarnation. All possible permutations must find expression, the balance of energies must be maintained, even if they shift in favor of one side over the other, at times. This cyclic and spiraling resonance also is necessary.

Since all is One, all of this talk of Predators can be seen as an expression of psycho-spiritual dramas that we work out through deep-consciousness interactions within the span of lifetimes lived simultaneously – outside of time and space, i.e. perceptual dimensionality – as we each are reflections of the Infinite and Eternal “I”. All that is without is an expression of what is within. Practically speaking, our lives are the lessons we learn, and we work them out in the context of greater forces. The personal dramas in our lives can be seen as the expression of dramas originating in higher densities of conscious awareness. Or, in more metaphoric, mythological terms, the war between G-d and Lucifer is ongoing and works itself out in each and every one of our lives; G-d being the Multiverse and Lucifer being humanity, the return of consciousness from material incarnation to ethereal Oneness being the goal as we – our collective Soul-group – climb the branches of the Tree of Life.

As above, so below. If we as a human family feel justified in utilizing minerals, plants and animals as we will because our intellect and capacities place us at a level we perceive to be higher than theirs, then what is to prevent entities whose intellect and capacities place them at a level that is higher than ours from utilizing us in a similar fashion? Seeing us as energetic or material resources and sustenance? As food? And, if such were the case, then what types of strategies would these Predators use in order to capture, corral or confuse their prey? How would these strategies appear to us and what would be the signs of their success or failure?

Energy is a precious commodity. Our lifeforce, chi, kundalini, the very engine of our evolution. The discerning factor in whether or not we live a life of conscious intent or a life of unconscious ignorance is the choice we make regarding the seeking after knowledge for the purpose of gaining wisdom. In biblical terms, faith without works is dead. Believing without becoming that which is believed, living without practicing that which one knows is true. Wisdom strengthens us, faith is demonstrated as knowledge based upon immutable natural and spiritual laws. As understanding is gained, the ability of others to define us lessens. The ability of others to siphon our energy is reduced. The ability of others to consume us as food ends.

The coalescence of the 3 distinct ways under the holistic 4th way becomes the path less traveled, combining body, mind and heart in holistic resonation to the final stages of material incarnation. Conserving and utilizing our energies in proportions exact to the need of the moment indicates a gaining of wisdom and a consolidation of incarnate experience. Becoming cognizant of the energetic maelstrom within which we manifest experience is a necessary step in navigating it and finding our way through life’s storms intact, ready to take on the next stage of our spiritual, evolutionary development.

The Unknown Path: The fear of Reality and its implications


There is a disconnect between objective reality and subjective reality. The many viewpoints of the human family seem to indicate that the realities that we create are equal to Reality itself. That, depending upon what we believe, the world around us will reflect that belief and will, in fact, conform the Objective Reality to the subjective, or perceived, reality. We labor to greater or lesser extents to live and carry out the plans that we have for our lives against a stream of events that either support or negate our desires, and we proceed or stall based upon the strength of our willpower and intentions.

When we do admit to the possibility of higher forms of consciousness and their impact upon our lives, we often concentrate upon those influences that we perceive to be beneficial and relegate those negative influences to some state of subordination to a greater, all encompassing Positivity, or Goodness, that has our best interests at heart. The major monotheistic religions support this belief in their general-if-not-universally-accepted insistence that G-d is Good, and that is all that He is. Despite the evidence of our senses and experiences that Negatives lead to Positives, and Positives lead to Negatives, we still insist that Love and Light reign in all ways and at all times, and that if we concentrate upon the positive and ignore the negative, then all will turn out for the best.

And it seems that is so. That all does, eventually, turn out for the best, as events – both Negative and Positive – sow the seeds of experience within every aspect of our lives, poignantly exemplifying a perhaps-intrinsic realization that G-d is more than Good, He is both Good and Bad combined. These terms, being value judgments, run counter to a more objective interpretation of Good and Bad being synchronous to Positive and Negative, or two dichotomous expressions of a holistic ideal, each being absolutely dependent upon the existence of the other.

As I stood outside a few minutes ago, thinking about these ideas, a certain Truth came to me. That all is not love and light. That hate and darkness is the natural inverse to love and light. That it is the experience of both extremes that comprise the spectrum of life. That seems to imply that the acknowledgement of this fundamental relationship is necessary in order to see past the veil of the subjective, into the realm of the objective. That it is possible to do so, only through examining our cultural and social preconceptions to the extent that we remove – as far as possible – misleading teachings and understandings that cause us to misinterpret that information that comes to us, or the evidence of our perceptions and experience, in order to determine what is really going on behind the curtain.

A monarch butterfly fluttered up to me as I came to this realization, stalling for a few seconds in the space before me, seeming to confirm this understanding with its implicit presence, its symbolic representation as an Archetype of Transformation causing an unmistakeable resonance of truth to thrum through my entire body, the vibrations and warmth coursing through me as the sunlight brightened and colors strengthened. The butterfly continued upon its course and I sent it thanks in the form of love and telepathic gratitude, as I continued to contemplate upon how to approach this topic in a measured manner.

The world as we see it is an illusion. Whether this is true as an absolute statement of immateriality versus materiality is of little import. What is important is to apply this truism to the realm of perception and interpretation. The fundamental supposition of all religions and spiritual paths is that there is some interaction between Divinity and humanity upon this material plane of existence. The varied doctrines differ upon the exact details of this interaction but, generally speaking, religions share similar characteristics of deification of supernal entities, worship of these selfsame entities, some sort of sacrifice to these supernal entities and subjugation to these supernal entities.

Even anthropologists state that religions previoiusly considered to be polytheistic (traditional indigenous religions in Africa, the Americas, Asia) are, in fact, monotheistic, in that, while being represented by innumerable dieties that vye for human attention and worship, beneath the veneer of multitudinous powers and principalities lies one, overarching G-d concept that ties these cosmologies into a single, holistic and monotheistic narrative. Even the traditional, judaic-descended monotheistic religions systems present their cosmic hierarchies in terms of Angelic beings charged with dominion over natural and spiritual domains that encompass the entirety of Creation.

The inescapeable conclusion being that there are many lesser Powers and Principalities, but only one overarching, Divine Creation imbued with consciousness and intent.

The actually implementation of this seemingly innocuous and abstract knowledge is resonant with consequences too wide-ranging for me to discuss in complete detail here. But Sufism, Gnosticism, the Cathars, the teachings of Gurdjieff, Castenada, as well as many native traditions around the world, all speak of the dangers of human interaction with these supernal entities and state, succinctly, the world is a prison.

For those of us who are scions of pop culture and avid movie goers, the themes of spiritually-based movies such as Fallen, Constantine, The Prophecy, The Exorcist Series and any number of sci-fi movies, to include Invasion of the Body Snatchers, The Tommyknockers, The Astronaut’s Wife, Village of the Damned and, most noteably, The Matrix Series, all address this ideal of extra-terrestrial/mechanical or supernal entities threatening our very Freedom and the Souls of Humanity with a chilling, predatory consciousness that places us at the level of prey, rather than predator.

A discomfiting realization. But these are just movies, right? They have no bearing upon our subjective realities, right? Such fairy tales could not at all be indicative of any greater, more-objective-than-subjective reality, could they?

The world as it is and the world as we wish it to be are often two very different things. Different realities, even. It is possible, within the context of our society and our lifestyles to create a perceived reality that reinforces our own personal biases and belief systems. We can surround ourselves with people and places that help us to feel comfortable, while holding the unknown at bay with limited excursions out of our self and societally-created safezones. And yet, it seems that the paint is flaking off of the background scenery, there are cracks in the sky or, a lighting fixture falls from the roof of the sound stage, as happened in the movie, The Truman Show, resulting in the protagonist’s eventual realization that the world around him was not as it seemed to be.

Throughout human history, there have been glimpses of terrific possibilities, of the dangers inherent within an unknown and fearsome cosmos that was innimical to humanity, that actually sought to negate our specie’s influence and propogation to the boundaries of the natural world. It seems, these days, these fears are relegated to ancient mythology, crackpot UFO conspiracies and stultified religious traditions that place all Evil within and subject to the dominion of a greater and human-loving Good.

While we verociously consume the Earth’s very innards and its living creatures great and small in our drive to propagate an unsustainable and fear-driven lifestyle, it is only in our most febrile and imaginative entertainments and secret dreams that we dare contemplate the darkness that lies just outside the field of our sputtering grasp upon knowledge, fighting desperately against encroaching wisdom. To expose the fundamental contradictions in our subjective perceptions would require us to admit the probability that there is indeed something outside of our limited capacity to see and understand and, thereby, control.

Matrix-like truisms would be apt, at this point. To see beyond the flimsy, cloth walls of the carnival tent requires a desire to do so; to cast off the shades of ignorance to don the clear, glass spectacles of truth. To tune out the gaudy tunes and ephemeral exhilaration of the Ferris Wheel and look beyond the grotesque vision of the Lizard man and the Giant in the Side Show. To realize, once and for all, that knowledge without application is the very expression of ignorance.

To choose inaction in the face of the insupportable, to refuse to acknowledge that personal choice and group consensus act together to keep us encapsulated within a Prison of the Senses, is to choose the crowded highway over the mountain road. One is heavily traveled, the grades measured and easy, the sojourn relatively safe; while the other is sparsely traveled, wends high into the unknown, rife with danger to the unwary. Upon the wide and familiar road, all that you know flashes by the wayside, identifiable upon the surface as the trappings of normality. Your friends and family sojourn with you and you traipse along unconsciously, engaged in the very Stuff of Life. While, upon the unfamiliar path, you trod rocky and desperate terrain either alone or with those who seem strange to you, your senses are afire with clarity and absolutely nothing is known for certain, except for the Final Destination.

Making the decision to follow the Unknown Path separates one irretrievably from the masses, at least, during the course of this stage of the journey. Separating one’s subjective perception from that of our fellows is the choice of following the herd or striking out on one’s own. Eventually, we all make it to our final destination, the measure of each Soul’s advancement a function of his or her own will and desire. We are in this together, but it is incumbent upon each of you to choose your path according to your own needs, and not those of the Souls who travel with you for a time and through space, but who also have their own desires and needs to fulfill, separate from yours.

The difficulty in making this choice is undeniable. It is the decision to leap over the cliff into the Abyss with eyes closed, to trust in the existence of something beyond what is known and to embrace fear and transform it into something greater, and truer to the course of your life, and personal transformation. The only solace, in the end, is knowing that the choice is yours. That only you can make it, and that the life you choose is the life you live. Everything outside of that choice is non-existent. You create your own personal and subjective reality.

Until you find yourself confronted with a greater Reality beyond all possibility of denial.