The pleasures of a life are many and fleeting but are as nothing compared to the ecstasy of life. The sublime experiences of the spirit are able to lift one from the midst of the daily grind, eliciting wonder and joy, giving a higher context to the purpose of living consciously and in search of the higher aspects of self versus the gratification of the lower. The juxtaposition of the physical and the spiritual is the cauldron of happiness and sadness we traverse through our experiences, the fixation of our attention and perspective alternating between the higher and the lower aspects of our lives. Navigating the Path between the two extremes requires discipline and dedication, mind control and emotional stability.
Life is both sweet and sour and it is designed to be that way. The Earth experience is not a garden of peace nor is it a war planet. It is both and neither, it is something more and something less. The more is the sum of its parts, the objective manifestation of all potentiality within a holographic material matrix of sensual inundation and psycho-spiritual bombardment that satiates the multidimensional requirements of evolving souls. The less is its relative and subjective nature, its tendency to overwhelm the senses and the mind, resulting in crass debauchery and physical enjoyment to the detriment of the higher senses.
Once you have experienced Oneness, the Godhead/Trinity, Unity, Source, directly and unequivocally, you are forever connected to it from that moment on. It lies behind every thought, it informs every relative truth, it denies all separation. It is the futility of living false lives, of telling lies, of being greedy, of serving the needs of self over others. It is pressing the internal button to turn on the omniversal multimedia presentation called Creation, to connect to it consciously, with the intent and purpose of complying with its directives, which represent the laws of energy conservation and movement at all levels of being. In all actuality, we are never disconnected from it – as it is our Home – but the inculcation of an egoistic personality complex and the mental structures of time and space navigation combine to obscure the deeper currents of mind, where the still and placid immensity of All That Is flow unendingly, ever available to those willing to let go and let God.
The pleasures of life lived for the senses are a mere distraction from the deeper pleasures of spiritual awakening. Going beyond pleasure, beyond happiness, beyond the need for any sort of material gratification or emotional intoxication is the reward of the spiritual quest. Food, sex, violence and all variations and associated modalities satiate the sensual, those whose highest aspirations are material gratification and that is as it should be, as life takes all types and we all co-exist at different levels of understanding and experience. But for those traversing these dales of lustful travails they pale quickly, the call ever heard to seek higher, go deeper, expand vision and experience wider. The quiet whisper of Truth promising something more, something amazing, something lasting, something real. And yet, paradoxically, it is the moderate experience of both sides that reveals the true meaning of life.
Complying with the directives of Creation is following the voice from nowhere, the one that speaks without sound. Learning to still the mind and cultivate the quietude of inner peace. Existing in the Now when necessary, recognizing the Crossroads moments and embodying purest Self in response, thereby fulfilling destiny and the highest potentiality of each and ever moment.
As humans on the journey of self-discovery it is necessary for us to be gentle with ourselves along the path. We will fail. We will backslide, meander, digress for a time, it is the nature of consciousness co-opted to alternate between sleeping and awakening for a time. But there will come another time when you will suddenly realize that you are awake more than you are asleep, that you are conscious of your path and purpose and you are actively manifesting the actions necessary to embody your truest expression of Self as only you can.
But to get to this space of Being one has first to begin the journey.
The gratifying reality of real spiritual advancement is that as you initiate your conscious and directed journey to realization you become aware of the existence of certain markers and signposts along the way. There are traditions that inform the seeker about roadblocks ahead or pratfalls to be traversed. Holy books filled with the wisdom of the ages and oral traditions cached with the truth of eternity. Continued immersion within spiritual themes contributes to control of the mind as contemplative practices such as meditation and prayer rarefy the mental space, making it a fitting abode for the Divine. As the mind purifies, the thoughts purify, as the thoughts purify so do the words and, as a result, the actions.
Jesus can get you there, as can Buddha, as can Muhammad, as can Eckhart as can Blavatsky as can so many others. The understanding that surpasses sectarian subjectivity and cultural relativity is the realization that all speak of the same underlying reality by way of differing perspectives. We each take on the perspectives that are comfortable to us. All who follow the path sincerely and with dedication will arrive at the same goal eventually. The path is an inner one and the religious traditions all possess the keys that will unlock the gate. Choosing to unlock the gate is choosing to integrate the higher and lower natures and to accept life as it comes, forgoing the dependency upon the physical nature to solve our problems and determine our goals in life. Getting past impatience and anger, jealousy and greed. Cultivating patience and tolerance, compassion and altruism. Becoming a complete human being, squaring the circle and enlightening the consciousness.
A return to the creative void, to Source and the experience of Nirvana, aligns the individual with the All.
The experience of total union, of submersion within Oneness will retaining a recognition of one’s self apart from that Oneness sears the synapses, clearing emotional detritus of a lifetime and allowing the individual to return to mundane waking life. But that does not remove her from experiencing the effects of her actions. Past karma is cleared but current karma in the Now must always be resolved as both the seed and the result are contained within every action. The wisdom of the Ages instructs without err in proclaiming that those seeking to live a higher form of life must free themselves of all attachments, be they good or bad. By so doing, future actions will not create karma that must be resolved in this or another lifetime.
But how can you live a life free of karma?
By being totally integral.
What does that mean?
By living free of obscurations. Totally clear, like a glass of water.
What are obscurations?
They are the expressions of ego. All separateness from others creates obscurations.
What are some examples of these expressions?
Lying, coveting and all behavior associated with these obscurations.
Attachments bind one to the object of attachment. Resultant behavior not in alignment with Source must be corrected to be in alignment. The purity of Source is the ultimate love, an infinite measure beyond that deemed to be human love, an expression of the totality of all emotion underlying the form of creation as the substrate of materiality, the magnetic and gravitational force that simultaneously attracts and repels, binds and releases, causes and results. As the foundational aspect of all being, its precision is mathematical in nature, encompassing all potentiality and probability, according all natural and human laws as dependent variables that range around a median modality of expression materially manifest as the cosmos and multiverse. The energetic reality underlying the objective experience enforces compliance with multiversal law which is experienced materially as thermodynamics and karma.
Human experientiality ranges in the median of all energetic variables. Our senses experience only a small fraction of the total. We see and hear in the middle of the visual range, our other senses are limited to our perceptual awareness which is all too often minimized due to the distracted nature of our thought processes. The inherent subjectivity of human incarnation is made even more difficult by the isolation of ego and the facade of relativity mistaken as objectivity. The inability to see and experience reality clearly result in obscurations that must be reconciled along the spiritual path. That reconciliation is the goal of all aspiration.
Once the seed of karma has been watered its fruit must be born as it is an energetic equation that must eventually be solved. The clearer one becomes the quicker the karma is resolved. The less detritus that stands in between the individual ego and Source the more direct the path between cause and result. The emotional return is dependent upon the chosen connections made following Satori, if any. The choice to remain living in the world necessitates the choice of attachments to maintain in order to retain that connection to materiality, or else the call of the formative void is too great to resist for very much longer following the direct experience of it.
What do you mean, the call is to great to resist?
Death calls, ever.
Death is the end of everything!
Death is the end of nothing.
Isn’t death fearsome?
Death is the end of fear.
How is it possible for one to be afraid of a place one has visited previously? This is the primary gift of Satori. The sure knowledge of what lies beyond the mortal veil. From the moment of that realization on, fear of death is done. All lesser fears immediately or gradually fade away as well.
Nothing in this Creation can truly harm any of us. Living life consciously in awareness of Life after Death is to live a life of total Freedom. Realizing that the choices and the conditions of a life are shifting and ephemeral is to take away their power to give rise to fear within and, if and when the choice to live according to full knowing is made, the person so connected to that which lies beyond becomes the living expression of the infinite and eternal and the ancient truisms pertaining to divinity without and within become the lived modality of being. All thoughts, words and actions are then in alignment with Source as Source is the direct knower, manifesting through the material vessel of the individual who has evolved to this state of manifestation. Certain aspects of personality remain, the ego remains, but now as a servant rather than the master of the vessel.
Those who achieve this state of being are often apart but never lonely as their compassion fills the world, connects them to all souls within the world and beyond. Normal relationships may fall by the wayside as people move on, as they are not receiving what they were previously on the emotional side of the relationship. The individual may appear uncaring on the level of romantic love, even though the heart of compassion is alive within them. To old friends and lovers, they may seem like a different person altogether. And they are. The memories of the person they were before remain, but the emotional connections no longer define them. The experience of true unity, true all-encompassing, all-permeating, all-existent love, compassion and one-ness contextualizes human aspiration and life and we incarnate within its grasp become visible at our true scale in relation to all things.
Such a revelation can be staggering if ego is engaged fully, its impermanence and instability on display as always. But beyond ego there is a space of knowing that we all have. An understanding of where we have come from and where we are all eventually returning to that can reveal the true meaning of life beyond the dramas, the pain and the tears. All of that has its place in our existence and is meaningful to our individual and collective spiritual growth. Everything is an expression of one thing and nothing is separate. Absolutely nothing.
The seed and its fruit are implicit in every thought, word and action. If you do something, what you thought would happen? Will happen. And it will be what you knew would happen all along.
It’s been 3 months and 15 days since the Great Gathering. The Awakening experience continues. The world is full of pain and sorrow, suffering is promised until we find our way out. This Vale of Tears beckons us with its siren-call of heartache and excitement, passion and joy. We choose to return, to be with each other and to experience, each time. We die, and then we come back. I come back for you and you come back for me.
There has been no return to my previous state of mind or being. In fact, there has been a further deepening of the condition. As discussed in previous articles in the Practical Enlightenment series, there was a flattening of my emotional ties to past events and traumas that has continued. While that remains the case, as mentioned previously as well, old patterns of thought and behavior do continue to echo, although, for the most part, they grow fainter and fainter. A few behaviors continue that are deeper rooted within my psyche. According to Sadhguru, once Full Enlightenment is reached, the spirit automatically leaves the body. That is, unless something of the Earth is held on to. Some desire. Mine pertain to my family and mission.
For the Buddha, that desire was to teach. He held on until he had transmitted enough of his experience to his disciples and then he left the body in a conscious ceremony witnessed by humans, Devas and Brahmans alike. Siddhartha who became Buddha the totally Awakened One achieved his state of Being after 6 years of asceticism. One day, while sitting beneath a tree, he heard a musical instrument being played by a student on a passing boat. When the instructor explained to the student how the instrument should be tuned, neither too tight nor too loose, the idea of the Middle Way came to him. He immediately got up and went to the water to drink. Food was given to him by a village maiden. His disciples left, convinced he had given up the search for Enlightenment.
The 6 years of mind training served Siddhartha well because when he took his seat beneath the Bodhi tree determined not to move until he attained his goal the mental strength and purification of his neural net and synaptic connections he had meticulously honed during the previous years provided him with a solid, clear container within which Cosmic Consciousness could reside. His decision, 6 years prior, to leave his newborn son and wife and set off to find the answer to suffering set him along the path and, following his victory over Mara, the Lord of Maya, under the Bodhi Tree, Siddhartha attained Enlightenment and became the Buddha.
For some who attain enlightenment in these days and times it comes out of the blue. Some were not previously on a spiritual path while others had been seeking for years. It can occur spontaneously or it can be the culmination of a long period – potentially many lifetimes in the making – of mind-training and meditative practice. For many who attain Enlightenment, there has been no previous meditative immersion to the extent and intensity that Shakyamuni practiced. There has been no clearing of the neural networks. And so, for these souls, the process must occur after Satori. For me, I achieved the state first when I was 12 years old.
It was Oklahoma City, I was in 7th grade. Something had happened, I cannot recall the particulars. But I do recall the sense of despair. Overwhelming, raw, grief. Those were days when I could not look in the mirror at myself I was so ashamed of who I was. I was outcast in school, the subject of jokes and I was overwhelmed by the negativity and callousness of the other children. I did not know how I could go on. I remember a clear sensation of letting go, of being so tired of life, that I wanted to die. I totally let go of my self, of my ego, of my life. I sank within a pool of sadness that emanated outward from the center of me, encompassing my entire consciousness, until something was born there. Something that scintillated and shone, that began to spread like wildfire through me. Something like, joy.
The grief mixed with the joy to become an overwhelming symphony of compassion and then, I was elsewhere. The feelings of the space come through still most clearly, even after all of these years. The transcendent joy and sorrow; my oppressors were no longer that, they were my companions, and the compassion that I felt for them was so much that I knew that I could die for them, for the world, if need be. That life was not important because life was never-ending and I would never really die, that there was no true death! Floating, ego lost, no I, no consciousness, the I that I speak of was a vast and impersonal We, I was immersed within the void that was filled with an energetic presence that I can only describe as the most intense, soothing and perfect love that I have ever felt in this life.
I do not know how long I stated in that space of supreme bliss and enjoyment, basking in the revelation of my inner eternal nature, of our shared, infinite portion of sublime contentment. But upon my return, life continued. I cannot remember the exact timing or date of this early Awakening experience but what I do know for certain, is that I was different then. Something about me had changed. And people could tell.
The remaining primary and secondary school years were revelations of difference and I was an observer, even of my own participation. I had no context outside of the terror of sleep paralysis that had been happening to me by then for a few years. No teachers, no books to inform me as to the nature of my experience. And so, I forgot about it. I erased the memory from my mind to the extent that only the faintest of recollections would disturb my waking slumber in later years, but no full recall until I was well on the way down my spiritual path.
But the echoes of it must have been apparent in my behavior. The particulars of my incarnative choices; black, American, male, and the synchronicities of life experience, of location and situation led me into extreme expressions of the experience of being Other during my youth. Of being different, the only black kid in all white environments, the familiar – to minorities around the world – refrain of the outcast versus the system. It seemed to be a constant reminder that I was different, I didn’t belong, something about me was off when compared to everyone else.
The problem was, there was no community where I fit in. Not black, not white, not integrated. Black kids teased me and bullied me, so did white kids. But I felt. I felt deeply. I felt compassion and love for my fellow beings. I was drawn to the sanctity of the Christian Church, the expression of a lived and vibrant spirituality. And yet, my social life remained problematic until I grew to the height of 6 foot and made the choice to pursue athletics again, as I had under the tutelage of my father during my primary school years. Then, things changed. My strangeness was offset by my ability and successes. I could dance and was, apparently, handsome. I was acceptable, with a few caveats.
I studied people and, where I could, made a place for myself in alternative communities, among the literary youth, interested in Sci-Fi and Fantasy, among the Artists, the Musicians, among the neighborhood kids, usually younger and with the girls, who accepted me for who I was. Friends, family members and casual acquaintances would on occasion look at me strangely because of my words or behavior. They thought I was arrogant, disrespectful, or uncaring and told me as much. I could not see myself the way they saw me. My ignorance of how or why I had changed left me puzzled by people’s reactions to me. I remember asking my mother, after the Satori experience, about leaving the body. Astral traveling, probably in relation to the experience itself. I do not remember if I told her about it. She informed me that evil spirits could possess me, which ended that line of inquiry. But, somehow, I made it through all of the confusion with a minimum of harm to myself or to others.
The kenshō experience of my youth is now unmistakable. It fits all of the koan-like and parable-based descriptions of the Buddhist traditions as well as those of the modern Enlightenment Gurus who describe it directly in the Western tradition of academic exposition. As soon as I graduated from High School and went to College, my spiritual explorations took off and I began to study and practice meditation. The Great Gathering returned me to that exact same space, the Master encountered during that visit to the shining city of Shambhala smiling gently as emanations of pure magnetic love and compassion swept over me, his gesture sending my astral form flying backwards and upside down and back into Nirvana. It was as if the intervening years since my last experience passed in the blink of an eye and I had returned home. But these were not my only two experiences of that space. The intervening experience – which I’ve written about previously and has been published in a collection of learning stories – was a bit different.
I was in the military, the Army, learning Morse Code. The course was what was called an Additional Skill Identifier, so I was sent there directly after completing my primary communications course of 14 weeks as a Single Channel Radio Operator and before a month’s vacation back in San Antonio before being shipped off to Germany for what would become a 4 year tour of duty.
Tapping the telegraph key for 8 hours a day. The goal was to learn the language and to be able to tap the characters fast enough to complete groups of 5 characters. We were responsible for being able to type 10 groups a minute by the time the class ended.
One day, about two weeks into the four week course, as I was listening to the code, tapping the key, there was a bending in my mind and, suddenly, I was again in a vast, formless space of nothingness, void-like in nature. And yet, there was something there. The symbols for Morse Code were there, in more than just symbolic form, they were also being expressed as a form of music, of resonation. I was the symbols, they were a part of me, I was a part of them and we co-existed together in this formless space as One. It was a pure form of knowing and instantaneous in nature. In the moments of my submersion within that morphogenic field I knew Morse Code. There was another sudden, forceful bending of my mind, as if a mental muscle had been engaged, and I was back, exhilarated. And I knew Morse Code perfectly. In the space of the next 15 minutes I progressed from 3 groups a minute to 12. The instructor walked over, disbelief in his eyes. By the end of the course, I could tap out 28 groups a minute. The next closest person was 14.
The above-related event occurred in the middle of August, 1987. The Harmonic Convergence, as predicted by the Maya – ending the 5,125 year Great Cycle of History and beginning the 25 year energetic shift culminating on December 21, 2012 – occurred on August 16-17, 1987. The Harmonic Convergence was marked by a number of planets in Leo trining Jupiter in Aries and that also trine Saturn and Uranus in Saggitarius, an auspicious alignment, indicative of a collective energetic realignment and unification of purpose. This event marked the planetary embarkation upon a direct, spiritual path of evolution and ascension. As that has been the primary impetus of my life-path thus far, the correlation of my kenshō experiences with significant astronomical and astrological alignments is not lost on me. As I cannot date my initial experience, its relationship to astronomical factors remains a mystery.
The experience of Nirvana in this instance was as Knowledge. My first instance was as Compassion, as was the last, a full-circle reminder of the first. Perfect, pure insight that informed my spiritual explorations throughout my 20s and 30s. The other strange events I experienced in those years – to include the Remote Viewing and the OOBEs – make sense as the expression of Siddhis gained as a side-effect of my mental experimentations. As I have never felt pressed to explore them too deeply after becoming aware that I was able to access these alternate modes of perception, my current perceptive ability and paranormal experiences are limited to synchronicities, flashes of insight and the ability to access other’s auras and energy fields. As I currently explore these capabilities regularly through my work with BioEnergetic Holism™, they continue to deepen and I grow more and more confident in my abilities as a Seer.
The silence within deepens daily. Mindfulness is now second-nature and I can still the discursiveness of the sub-mental chatter at will. Meditation practice progresses, with the capacity to sit in shamatha meditation no longer tied to the breath or to the other mental tricks used by different traditions to get the mind used to stilling itself. I see no need for other forms of visual-based meditations, although those are quite popular in recent years.
The journey continues. As mentioned previously, I have determined that the “village” of my latest Satori was, indeed, the sacred city of Shambhala. The golden vibrancy, the peace, the extraordinary psychic abilities of those who lived there and the Master, he of exceptional presence and wisdom, who could only have been a Rigden King. After the Great Gathering, I basked in the expanse of Nirvana and unity consciousness for only a little while before deciding to return to my life and share the experience for the purpose of collective realization. There is no end, the deeper states of meditative exploration remain and the desire to document what I experience for the edification of others accompanies my desire to continue to love those who love me through the rest of their lives. I do not expect to return to this Vale of Tears again in human incarnation. The Bodhisattva in me desires only the enlightenment of all sentient beings.
I used to think I was people-smart. Meaning, that I understood the motivations of other people. And by understanding their motivations, I could read, understand and explain their behavior. I thought I was people-smart because I’ve been known to be right, to be able to predict people’s behavior, before. I think we all pride ourselves on being able to do this to one extent or another.
I now realize that being people-smart in the way that I was proud of being is not a virtue. It is instead an indication of the nature of my own thought processes and is not necessarily where they are coming from. There’s a saying that I’ve used for years that I generally understood the meaning of, but that I never really applied to me and my behavior at every level that it should be applied.
“We hate most in others what we hate most about ourselves.”
I understood on the surface what that meant: if someone likes to get angry at other people, I used to feel a self-righteous anger because they were getting angry. I would think to myself, how dare they impose their anger on someone else and express it that way? They are wrong for that and I am righteous for being upset that they are so wrong. Or, how dare they speak to someone that way? They are wrong for that and I am righteous for being upset that they are so wrong.
Sometimes it’s hard to hold a mirror up to ourselves to see the insanity of our own behavior.
I went around for many years doing this. In fact, I still have to catch myself doing it sometimes. Observing people, watching them, looking at their behavior and predicting why they do certain things. Engaging in entire flights of fancy regarding their thought processes, motivations and the possible consequences as they pertained to current and future actions and the ramifications of those actions. I could look at someone’s expression and tell you matter-of-factly what they were thinking. I could listen to a conversation and tell you what something someone said really meant. I could do this by observing their body language, listening to the words they used, the tone, watching and listening for the subtle clues that give an indication of underlying motives, of where words and actions do not necessarily coincide.
Don’t get me wrong, as I said before, I was right some of the time. I’ve studied body language, learned how to tell how people lie, why they lie, when they lie, where their eyes look when they’re making the lie up, the way hands or legs twitch or move or grasp each other when they’re telling the lie, the way shoulders are hunched or not when they’re lying to cover up the original lie, toes tapping, body rocking, lip or nail-biting, ear-pulling, tone-shifting, practically all of the little tell-tale signs that indicate the thought processes underlying the words as the lies pile up on top of each other. We can all do this to a greater and lesser extent, but I prided myself on having actually gone out to learn specifically how to do so in order to increase my abilities that much more.
But it is all vanity, in the end. Because what I have ultimately learned is that we can never know for certain where someone is coming from, what someone is thinking. We can look at their eyes and body language and listen to their words and come to an approximation. We can observe all of the signs and clues and come up with an idea. But we can never know for sure what is going through another person’s head.
But even more importantly than that, is that we shouldn’t try. To the extent that it evolves into more than assuring our basic survival it becomes another ego-tool utilized as a way of controlling one’s environment and other people; it is, in essence, an act of aggression and an energetic imposition of structure upon what should be and is, essentially, structure-less. And, by attempting to read another person in depth we are ignoring what we should be paying more attention to: ourselves. We are not responsible for other people. Other people’s actions are not our responsibility. What other people are doing, how they are acting, even as it affects us, is not our problem. It is theirs. Let me say that again, another way: anything anybody else does around you or to you is their business, not yours.
If someone does something that affects you negatively, then it is necessary that we look at ourselves in order to determine what we did to exacerbate the situation. If you get in an argument with someone and they harangue and berate you, then you need to look at how you set yourself up to be in that position in the first place. How did you set that person off? What did you do or say that brought that negative energy out in them?
Does that sound like too much for you to take on? Does it sound insane to you? I realize that this is not a popular way to be. It can even be said that this is not a natural way to be, if being under the sway of the emotions is considered to be our natural state.But it is the compassionate way to be. It is the civilized way to be. It is the elevated way to be. It is the way forward that leads to a civilized and elevated interaction. To civilized and elevated relationships. To civilized and elevated societies.
By allowing people the sovereignty of their own thoughts and behavior and accepting responsibility for your own, you are driving all blame into one. You are making the decision to become sovereign yourself, to no longer accept the cop-out of blaming others, of placing sovereignty outside of yourself and being a victim. It’s way too easy to blame other people for your problems, for your situation. It’s way too easy to blame your ex for your emotional disfunction. It’s way too easy to blame your old boss for your current lack of a job. It’s way too easy to blame your parents for your childhood. It’s way too easy to blame God for your tribulations.
People will surprise you when given the chance. Some people, I should amend. Some will do exactly what you think they will, what the signs show and tell you they will, each and every time. But it is not your place to pidgeon-hole them like that. It’s not our place to limit their potentiality in that manner, even if it is only in our own minds. Because when we expect someone to speak or act in a certain way, we then adapt our own speech and behavior in anticipation of that response and by so doing project that framework onto and into the other person. You are, in essence, using the emotional energetic link you are engaged in to create a holographic reality through the force of your imagination that limits the potentialities of the moment to the extent that the other person is incapable of transcending the contextuality of the interaction, which is difficult, given the tendency of emotions to sync in conflict approximating a cause and effect feedback loop that, generally, canonly escalate unless outside intervention occurs. Is it then little wonder that they live up to your expectations by engaging in the behavior that you have set them up to fulfill?
By taking the opportunity to examine your own behavior and seeing where you caused your current situation or emotional state, you are recapitulating your life. You are engaging in a life-review, something that most people only do at the time of death. By doing it early you are taking control of your personal ethical and spiritual evolution. You are making a statement to the universe that you accept the responsibility of being a sovereign soul. You are releasing others to eventually become responsible for their own thoughts, words and actions by removing yourself from their equation, not letting your thoughts, words and actions give them the excuse to engage in karma-building behavior. You are making the choice to move forward into the future in control of your thoughts, in control of your words and in control of your actions.
There are so few people walking around the planet right now that are in full control of their thoughts, words and actions that by being one of those who are, you are courting the state of awakening and contributing directly to the overall state of enlightenment of the human race. Because, of course, this is an integral part of the overall Enlightenment process. An important realization on the way to understanding that love and compassion, as the expressions of relative bodhicitta, are the direct pathways to manifesting ultimate bodhicitta, which is resting in permanent abiding and silencing the nigh-automatic discursiveness of the uncontrolled mentality.
For many of us, it’s an ingrained habit to attempt to control our immediate environment by projecting our own thought processes onto others. And it gets worse every time we get lucky and turn out to be right. Because then we think we’re on to something, we get all high and mighty, proud and self-congratulatory. It is ego-clinging to the extreme. Egocentricity. The mind holding itself above others, prideful, disdainful, presumptuous. These are qualities to be culled from the personality structure and the only way to do so is by driving all blame into one. Accepting responsibility for our part in the dual or multiple-nodal collaborations that our interpersonal interactivity represents within the flow of time and space that we call our lives.
This teaching is not for everybody. Some will read this and think, what?! And that is fine.
Drive all blame into one. Take responsibility for everything. Even things that you really do think are other people’s fault. Make it a mental exercise where you are trying to find the place in the sequence of events where you last take responsibility for the outcome. Eventually, the teaching will become second nature and you will find that your own nature becomes more civilized, more elevated.
More Enlightened.
For those with eyes to see, let them see. For those with ears to hear, let them hear.
All others will come to understanding in their own time.
An holistic and multi-dimensional understanding of reality must include recognition of the potentiality that phenomenon considered singular in nature might have some relation to other phenomenon. Also, that at different levels of understanding, phenomenon considered singular in nature might actually have multiple forms of expression. The individual’s journey through the depths of his or her soul is but a microcosmic example of the greater interrelation of galaxies and solar systems, of multiverses and universes. A person’s soul can be part of a group-soul and group-souls can make up Higher Selves, Avatars or Names of God, depending upon terminology and perspective. Finding relationships between disparate phenomenon of a higher ethereal nature cannot occur independent of that phenomenon’s expression on the material plane of existence. With these understandings, we can examine certain ideas and determine whether there are relationships of note to be highlighted and expounded upon.
The Maitreya is the Buddhist equivalent of the Second Coming of Jesus the Christ, the Jewish equivalent is known as the Mashiach and the Islamic equivalent is the Mahdi. All of these savior figures were fortold as coming to the Earth in a time of great tribulation and evil. While there are questions and arguments – both for and against – as to the conceptual viability surrounding the original conception of each one of these messianic figures in the historical record as well as within the sect-based traditions themselves, the broad-based belief in these figures speaks to some underlying need within the human collective unconscious for a supernatural avatar to redeem the world, and those residing within it, from sin. An unbalanced equation requires conciliation of all involved variables in order to find a new balance and order.
While Buddhism is not necessarily considered to be a proselytizing religion the zeal with which some of its proponents profess their faith and engage non-believers in the Dharma certainly possesses some missionary-like fervor. As the primary representative of eastern spiritual thought in western countries, Buddhism has experienced a broad-based acceptance as both a philosophy and a religion. Therefore it is embraced by both believers and non-believers alike. Being outside of the judeo-christian complex of belief systems, and therefore less familiar to many in the West,
the Maitreya avataric conception is not subject to the same cultural preconceptions as the Jesus avatar. Being so unencumbered, it stands to reason that it’s formulation, when adapted from it’s original Buddhist format and combined with the avataric conceptions of the Messiah, the Mashiach and the Mahdi, has the best chance of being representative of some greater truth while not falling prey to the institutionalized limitations that bind the judeo-christian avataric figures to an historic panorama of forced proselytization, warfare and patriarchial repression.
For that reason, entering into the Age of Aquarius, the ancient Hermetic conception, As Above, So Below - which I employ perhaps to distraction in many of my writings – resonates as an appropriate phrasology in this instance as well. The Maitreya energetic construction as a combination and reconception of the savior-complex that typifies the universalizing religions and unity-consciousness templating currently invigorating world populations exemplifies a demi-urgic group soul imperative manifesting during the current phases of human spiritual evolution. It is important to realize as well that the current entry of the Earth into galactic space correlated with the beginning of the Age of Aquarius and also coinciding with Earth’s ascension above the galactic plane and entry into the densest and highest energetic region of the galaxy. While there is much confusion surrounding the astronomical aspect regarding Sol-System’s current position in regards to the galatic plane, the increase in cosmic energetic bombardment of the Earth and the increase in meteoric and cometary appearances in the space surrounding our planet may be indications that it is occuring.
The Aquarian Age is similarly fuzzy when seeking to define parameters. There are varying ideas regarding when it begins and when the Piscean Age ends, with most falling into the current range of decades corresponding to the present era. Entry into this Age, as with all that come and go across the span of time, occurs only through the ending of the previous Age, which often occurs with the fall of old civilizations and the rise of new civilizations. High technology, more sustainable environmental and economic systems, intergenerational, racial and sexual equity and increased spiritual awareness are shared traits that span the gamut of expressions regarding the nature of the Aquarian Age.
Since the Piscean Age was typified by the repression of the Divine Feminine through the institutions of societies across the world the new energetic configurations resulting from cosmic bombardment and the evolution of human consciousness have generated an avataric formulation of the perfection of this inequality in the form of the Twin Flame alignment of souls. Although the hype surrounding the idea of Twin Flames is similarly confusing, it can be said generally that Twin Flames are two people who come together and share an energetic and incarnational alignment. What this means is that they are naturally and magnetically drawn to one another, they share many things in common, they compliment each other very well and their views regarding life are eerily similar to the extent that the confluence of all of these similarities marks the union as exceptional.
Being differentiated from the Soul Mate conception by its exclusivity, the Twin Flame energy is commonly believed to be unique to only two souls who may come together in an incarnation or not. However, the societal and cultural infractions that pervert all spiritual traditions as they become institutionalized and bent to the desires of those who define them have similarly resulted in the corruption of the Twin Flame ideal. Through the synthesis of definition and a focus upon primary intent, the Soul Mate conception can be said to relate to any individual with whom innate soul recognition is shared and with whom previous incarnational resonances can be felt during the currently lifetime. Each person, therefore, has many soulmates that they continue to incarnate with and interact with in lifetime after lifetime. Twin Flame energy, contrary to popular belief, is not a binding of two souls that may or may not meet during a lifetime, but instead a resonance based upon current vibrational frequency that shifts as an individual grows into greater spiritual awareness.
This resonance can only occur once an individual has realized the fallacy of romantic, chivalric love and the associated paradigmatic mainstays(emotional, pheremonic attraction, monogamy, marriage, etc.) that have developed in response to survival needs and inter-sex agreements regarding the disposition and care of the aged, women, children, land and other culture-based institutions. The universality of love as the electromagnetic resonance factor in tune with the base-vibrational qualities of Creation itself subsume the pheremone and emotion-based ephemeris passing as love, awakening the urge to find oppositional expression within another upon the material plane by incarnational time-line interplay through quantum-jumping and manifesting directed intentions at both the conscious and sub-conscious levels. Through the personal melding of oppositional energies an outer expression of same can be found.
In other words, a necessary prerequisite to finding a Twin Flame in the world is for each individual to reconcile the male and female aspects of themselves. The spiritual work necessary to do this can only arise through the process of deep introspection, recapitulation of a lifetime and a delving through and past cultural preconceptions and patriarchial myths designed to uphold current power structures based upon inequality and the suppression of the Divine Feminine. One must dissolve the inner-structures that support the outer institutional expressions of this repression and either consciously or through dream-state work merge potential time-lines within the personal field of the incarnational span with the realization that time is an illusion and all incarnations truly occur simultaneously and are accessible through the directed use of intention and imagination and the lense of a clear and unencumbered mind.
The type of clarity invoked must be of the type cultivated by a mind under control and emotions that have been brought to bear in service of the self rather than in control of the body as is generally the case with most people who have not engaged in personal spiritual work of this nature. Directed energy and healing work, meditation and supplication to allied powers and principalities are among the methods available to individuals to gain the necessary mind control to arrive at a space within their lives where a Twin Flame union becomes a potential expression of life goals and higher potentialities. The Twin Flame template accepts two souls within its intertwined matrix, but it is not necessarily the same two souls all the time. A person can meet someone who expresses the Twin Flame energies and seems to be their perfect mate, but if one continues to grow into the union and the other fails to do so, that soul can exit the template and another can rise to take his or her place. The energetic resonance is the key, not necessarily the Soul Mate who may or may not have stepped up at a particular time to fit the lock.
In drawing the different threads of this article together, the Age of Aquarius proceeds upon the ushering in of the potential of the Maitreya energies realized first individually, through the personal spiritual evolutionary process, then through partners and the male/female union and then collectively as greater soul-groups find themselves surpassing the 100th monkey effect and the cascading imprints of the Twin Flame and Maitreya templates achieve avataric expression and inevitable material manifestation. The rise of the Divine Feminine in relation to the onset of the New Age supports the higher energetic resonance of those already attuned to spiritual growth life-patterns within the current incarnational matrix. More individuals will therefore find themselves engaged in Twin Flame unions as they each do the hard inner work of reconciling their own oppositional natures. The full flowering of the Age of Aquarius, then, must inevitably result in a more tolerant and loving world, as the collective energetic vibration rises due to the influx of cosmic energy, more people engage in soul work and more couples express the Twin Flame template. As that spiritually-aware group coalesces, a simultaneous focusing of energy and intent will result in the concentration of the Maitreya avatar within a twin-flame pairing or an individual. Avatars must exist and spread their teachings for and within each Age.
There are many intellectual and intuitive formulations that fall prey to misunderstanding and misinterpretation. That is the nature of words. The nature of knowledge. That they are interpreted through the lense of prior understanding. As understanding increases, more information is processed and a greater synthesis and multi-dimensional envisioning becomes possible, a truer and more accurate picture of the energetic interconnectivity occurs. Twin Flames are a byproduct of the individual perfection of the soul. It is not a prize, nor is it a higher form of dating or marriage. It is an energetic construction that is designed to increase the vibrational level in the immediate space of its manifestation as well as the frequency of the world as a whole. The Twin Flame template is not an invitation to lose one’s self in the exploration of another to the detriment of the world. Rather, it is an expression of a greater imperative to unite and represent the culmination of the Divine Union of Opposites, the melding of male and female energies within the individual, then the couple and then, the world.
* Article as realized through the process of Bioenergetic Holism™ with Shannon Fry and Jennifer Templeman.
One of the most important things that happens directly after a kenshō experience is the loss of personal emotions. At least, that is what it seems like. But it is not actually what happens. The actual experience of kenshō results in a virtual wiping of the synapses within the brain’s neural network. Memory remains intact, as does the ability to feel emotion. What has occurred is that the emotional ties that were once held in common with certain memories and states of being have been severed.
Things that happen to you that once would have had you seething with anger no longer do so. Memories that once had you crying rivers lose their potency. People whom you once detested you are no longer bothered by. A state of equanimity sets in, that, at first, may be unsettling. You may wonder to yourself, have I lost my emotions? Can I love anymore? Can I hate?
All of these emotions remain accessible. But it has now become your choice whether or not to honor them. Whether or not to bring them forward past satori into your new state of BEing.
One of the consequences of this slate-cleansing process is an intensification of experiential awareness. As the state of Enlightenment becomes part of the lived reality, old patterns of thinking, of responding, or acting that have been stripped of their emotional power remain, but are no longer fueled by neuro-peptides coursing through the body in support of the thoughts and their potential actions. Previous meditative practice resulted in the ability to clear the mind of thoughts, but this state of BEing actualizes; it becomes the default state after satori. But, as mentioned, old patterns still remain and, as they come up, they must be dealt with. Because they are no longer fueled by emotions it is a relatively simple task to let them go when they do not serve the new personality construct.
One pitfall that seems to be a part of this process but actually is not, is when dealing with other people. Whether realized or not, the chemical expression of emotions is also an energetic expression. When we feel emotional, our bodies actually reflect those feelings which can be measured on instruments of different kinds. Energetically speaking, emotions are energy that can be detected through kirlian photography, aura-reading and energy work. When emotions are experienced, they also emanate from us as a field and other people can feel them. The stronger the emotion, the larger the field. If the emotion is directed at a certain person, then that person becomes the focal point of those emotions. If the emotions are directed at someone who has experience a kenshō event, then – and because of that event and the resultant ultra-sensitivity to physical and astral environs – that person experiences the emotional state as if it were her own.
This can be very confusing at first, but grows easier to handle in time. The emotions gleaned from others, which have rushed into the vessel of the enlightened one, can fuel responses commiserate either with old patterns of thinking and feeling or they can be processed and released. Effectively, they can pass through without catching hold. For the newly awakened, there remain old patterns that it is possible for the energy of the emotions to catch hold to, drawing the individual into the conflict which results in further confusion and inner examination. This is why it remains necessary for individuals who have experienced kenshō to continue in their meditative practices as well as designating time to the recapitulation process as a method of self-clearing and re-attunement.
The choice to remain involved in the world and with other people is the choice of service-to-others. The fallacy of seeking in the process of spiritual elevation as a function of egocentric tendencies of mind to the detriment of spirit are difficult to surpass as the ego’s grasp upon consciousness is often seemingly all-pervasive to those so encumbered. But the passage through the morass is ever-present. Its deceptive simplicity actually contributes to its difficulty as a “that’s it??” response often occurs after being told what seems to be an easy prognosis of quieting and controlling the mind. The actual process itself, once instigated, builds upon itself, which leads to a steady-state resonance that allows the individual to ground himself in a manner previously impossible. To be present during the daily grind and able to effectively project all of herself into whatever it may be they are engaged in. Even after all of this practice, the actual satori experience is an experience of grace that is transmitted through a spiritual teacher that may be present in the physical world or upon the astral planes. Therefore no one can predict exactly when Enlightenment may occur for anyone, or how.
Despite these pratfalls, it is not possible for a person who has experienced kenshō to un-experience it. To forget the experience or to return to the state of Maya. There remain no ties to the material world and its effects and all personality traits expressed thereafter become purposeful tools designated for specific tasks; the achievement of life-goals – of the spirit, not of desire – being paramount among those. Since the world of the senses holds no further attractions, those life goals must of necessity be spiritual in nature. And once kenshō has been experienced, the only spiritual goal worth achieving is helping others to move beyond Samsara as well.
… and intimate. How is it possible to argue with another about such a thing?
A belief is solidified in the mind to become subjective knowledge. That is why everyone’s beliefs are different in some facets. Our neural networks are linked up differently. Our synapses fire to different locations, connecting different pieces of information. Memory, education, experience differs, so how we interpret the same events is dependent utterly upon how we have wired our brains during the course of our lifetimes. That is why what we understand about something is never exactly the same as what someone else understands about it.
In the realm of spirituality this is exacerbated by the inherent unknowability of the process of gnosis. The intimate, personal experience of the inner world. This is why the best spiritual teachers teach in parables. People are thereby guided in the right direction but the destination is not defined succinctly. It is up to the Seeker to have the experience her or himself.
This is a cause of contention. This is a cause of conflict. This is a cause of drama. All of it unnecessary. Unnecessary because there is no ultimate description of spiritual attainment that can be encapsulated in words. How can you describe the indescribable?
For teaching purposes, those who have experienced certain states can employ tactics in order to impress upon students certain lessons that may lead the student in the right direction. The teacher does so from a place of understanding. He is playing upon the students emotions in order to bring about a desired result. If someone who has not experienced a certain state attempts to teach about it that person is not teaching from a place of knowing but instead a place of belief. Two different places. Incomparably so.
This is where conflict comes in and rightfully so. Listening to someone who barely has any idea of what they are talking about is a sure recipe for disaster. Such discussions must inevitably lead to conflict as the teacher is barely beyond the level of the student. When the Buddha was asked how people were supposed to know he was enlightened, he reached down and touched the ground with his fingers and answered, “The Earth is my witness”.
In a discussion with his disciples, Jesus told them that his Father’s house had many mansions. When Thomas expressed his doubts Jesus replied, “No one comes to the Father except through me”. Building upon his original metaphoric description of the path to spiritual salvation Jesus deepens it, his meaning clear. His life, his state of perception, outlook and actions were to be the template for others to follow. He led by example. But the common misperception of those verses to be literal in nature sadly obscure this deeper, gnostic truth. More argumentation.
Respecting the personal aspect of spirituality means that people must be allowed to be where they are at. We are all here as free will entities and to harangue and harass someone about their understanding of the world and their place in it is to totally misunderstand one’s own place in the world.
It is true that samsara is a place of confusion and illusion with the blind leading the blind. So in this world it is normal for such insane practices to be commonplace. It is normal for people to misunderstand. It is normal for people to argue and fight.
But as one comes to a greater understanding, but even more importantly, as one gains experience by accessing certain states of perception and attainment, it becomes easier to let other people be. To let them alone with their illusions. To listen to the “I’s” and “me’s” and “my’s” and “mines” and to understand what is really being said.
Experience trumps book knowledge all day every day. There’s an old saying that those who know don’t tell and those who tell don’t know.
There was a reason esoteric knowledge was kept secret for so long. A reason why the Church, the Mosque, the Temple were able to limit people’s knowledge for centuries. A reason why the secretive higher orders of the monotheistic religions held knowledge in thrall. Knowledge is power. And the reason why esoteric knowledge is so accessible now is indicative of the times and who you are who are seeking it. Even today, what the Seeker finds easily accessible on Internet remains inscrutable mystery to the masses.
Be thankful for your propitious situation and being born into a Time such as this to achieve a destiny such as yours. Now let everyone else walk the Path towards theirs in peace.
As must always be stated at the outset, kenshō is a stop along the path, it is not a final destination. There are shades and variegations in the hue of enlightenment, ranging from the ultimate enlightenment of a sage such as Siddhartha Guatama, that experienced by 84,000 that were enlightened in a day in one ancient Buddhist tale and the many others that are spoken of in countless parables.
There are many enlightened individuals out there today, including people such as Eckhart Tolle, Mooji, Adyashanti and others. Experiencing the state of oneness and unity and experiencing the perception of an all-encompassing love reveals the illusory aspect of material reality; it is an experience of the underlying and pervading reality upon which our daily lives are perched rather precariously, it must be said.
The popular perception of enlightenment as some unreachable goal that it takes many lifetimes to achieve is only partly accurate. It does take many lifetimes for some souls to go though the experiences of materiality. To get their fill of the love, the hate, the passion, the food, the sex and the habits. Or, it could just take one. It can happen over many lifetimes or it can happen instantly. In the greater context it might even be said that both are required in order for enlightenment to happen at all.
The search obscures the goal and yet to not search can take the Seeker even further away from it. The Seeker cannot seek after the unknown, since we cannot search for what we do not know. A search implies a journey through time but to find enlightenment one must go deeper into the Now, or no-time. Therefore, the decision to seek after a goal sensed if not fully known must become a lived process and not an intellectual problem. The journey must end before it even begins.
That is the paradox of realization and a large part of the problem in describing the state as well as the journey to that state to others. It has been at issue for millennia. Just look at all of the different sects and systems of Buddhism. It serves institutions to hold enlightenment up as a lofty goal that is only realized by some inhuman avatar, out of the reach of normal people. And while this is generally true, enlightenment is not an unrealizable goal. It is the natural state of every BEing.
Realization, enlightenment, is both an achievement and a gift. It is the liberation of the senses. The ability to perceive the world through the thought processes and all of the senses without the filter of the ego intervening. The absolute, lived knowledge of the nature of creation and that which lies beyond all perception.
When living in a monastery or alone upon a mountain with all of nature surrounding you it is a relatively peaceful task to enjoy the state of non-BEing in tune with the silence of a worshipful space, be it a temple or natural area. When an enlightened BEing must co-exist within the world and the influence of other BEings, certain choices must be made.
It is said that, upon enlightenment, there’s no predicting how that BEing might then act in response. Some get up and leave their lives without looking back. Others remain and seem the same. No matter the choice, the shift in the newly enlightened BEing is unmistakable to those around them.
The emotional patterns and personality template that previously defined the enlightened BEing are no longer applicable. Those patterns were dependent upon an identification with the body and its history. Once kenshō has occurred and the experience of the totality of existence has revealed the truth of lived reality the personality slate is virtually wiped clean. It then becomes the choice of the enlightened BEing regarding which aspects of her previous personality traits to retain and which to discard.
There is a danger here, though. The danger has to do with the expectations of others and the potentiality of retaining certain personality traits to please other BEings. The enlightened BEing can pretend to be unenlightened. But, since enlightenment is the core state of all incarnate BEings, once it is known it cannot then be unknown. The consciously enlightened cannot then become unenlightened.
In the teachings of Don Juan the great Yaqui Indian and Toltec Sorcerer there is the concept of Controlled Folly:
A warrior must know first that his acts are useless, and yet, he must proceed as if he didn’t know it. In other words, a warrior must know he is unimportant, but act as if he is important. That’s a shaman’s controlled folly. Nothing being more important than anything else, a warrior chooses any act, and acts it out as if it mattered to him.
In the Toltec tradition as expressed by Don Juan, enlightenment is known as seeing. Accordingly,
You think about your acts, therefore you have to believe your acts are as important as you think they are, when in reality nothing of what one does is important. Nothing! But then if nothing really matters, as you ask me, how can I go on living? It would be simple to die; that’s what you say and believe, because you’re thinking about life, just as you’re thinking now what seeing would be like. You want me to describe it to you so you can begin to think about it, the way you do with everything else. In the case of seeing, however, thinking is not the issue at all, so I cannot tell you what it is like to see. Now you want me to describe the reasons for my controlled folly and I can only tell you that controlled folly is very much like seeing; it is something you cannot think about.
Don Juan and the many enlightened sages of the Buddhist tradition are describing essentially the same process of perception and resultant actions taken in the world of humanity once a certain level of attainment has been reached by the practitioner, no matter the spiritual system.
Many enlightened Teachers utilize controlled folly in order to teach their followers. They act in outrageous ways to show their students the drawbacks of expectations and holding on tightly to preconceived notions about anything or anybody. Some enlightened BEings currently co-existing with their fellow humans do so without drawing attention to their state of spiritual realization. In this manner they travel through their lifetimes affecting the lives of others directly and indirectly without drawing too much attention to themselves.
Both paths have a heart. For the enlightened BEing of the Buddhist tradition, taking on the Bodhisattva role and forgoing one’s own transcension of the physical in order to help all other sentient BEings achieve enlightenment is a valid and laudable choice. For those, like Don Juan, who choose to follow the spiritual path to its ultimate goal, however they might define that process, the compassion of the Bodhisattva is considered to be one of the last affectations of the ego:
Warriors are incapable of feeling compassion because they no longer feel sorry for themselves. Without the driving force of self-pity, compassion is meaningless. For a warrior everything begins and ends with himself. However, his contact with the abstract causes him to overcome his feeling of self-importance. Then the self becomes abstract and impersonal.
Judgment is a foible of the ego. It is forming conclusions based upon limited input. Outside of the context of a dichotomous reality construct, within the realm of the abstract, where everything is one and differentiation is thereby meaningless in the everyday understanding of the term, good and evil are non-existent. Service-to-Self or Service-to-Others, both paths are valid. What is, is, and occurs regardless of the moral context. Awareness, energetic conservation and perpetual motion are the only true laws.
It’s hard to admit it when you’re caught consuming someone’s energy. It’s like someone’s caught you with your pants down. Or with unmentionables hanging out of your nose. Everybody’s supposed to move on. Nobody’s supposed to know what is going on, let alone talk about it or accuse you of doing it.
Emotional vampirism. I’ve discussed this issue numerous times before in the context of energy and inter-dimensional relations between different forms of consciousness. The give and take is mostly consensual. You and I might agree to engage in relationship which includes a certain level of energetic give and take. We allow for and give permission to each other to give each other energy. We also allow for and give permission to each other to take energy.
Sharing, caring, laughing, agreeing, listening, giving. This is positive output and we feed each other by giving it. Yelling, arguing, fighting, disagreeing, backbiting, withholding love. This is negative output and we consume each other by engaging in it.
We impose our energetic structures on others. Those closest to us and even strangers. Some people’s energy biomes are so strong they weaken you as soon as you come into contact with them. They seem to overwhelm you and you get the sense of overbearing presence. Other people’s energy biomes are strong in a different way. They seem to suck your energy from you. As if by just looking at you or speaking to you they are consuming your vital essence.
Words are power. I’ve spoken on this numerous times before also. Vibrations, resonance, actual creative force, they are often the means by which energy transfer occurs. As words impact us, entering our ears, their vibratory level, whether high or low, either resonates with us or it doesn’t. Words either give energy or take energy by their construction, by the grammar, the particular words used and the chemical output that fuels them.
Words spoken in anger have a certain resonation, words spoken with love have a certain resonation. One takes energy, the other gives. We have been trained since childhood in how to use words to give and take energy. We have learned to get our energetic sustenance not only from the food we eat but from each other.
As we age, our bodies become less able to glean energy from the food we eat and the nutrients we ingest as the cells of our bodies become used to receiving energy from the emotional patterns that we engage in over a lifetime. It is said that by the age of 35 our personality matrix is pretty much set and it is difficult to change the structure of your neural network and the synaptic lines that connect it. Our emotional habits are also set and we are often addicted to very specific forms of expression that reflect those chemical outputs and the behaviors that support them.
Some of us are addicted to anger. Some of us to sadness. Others to depression, still others to self-pity. Some are even addicted to happiness. All of these addictions are chemical addictions as the emotions that we feel are neuro-peptides released from the hypothalamus suffusing the cells of our body. As we age and our cells die and renew themselves, when they split, new cells are created to support the type of chemicals our bodies are used to making. If we are making anger neuro-peptides then our cells are geared toward accepting those to the detriment of other types of sustenance. This narrowed capacity to accept energy from other sources has obvious consequences.
This is how our body eats. So if, by the age of 35, we are generally consuming the energy gleaned from emotions more-so than actual nutritional sustenance, it is no wonder the aging process results in the death of the cells as they become less able to renew themselves because of their inability to obtain nutrition from natural sources. It is important to realize that we are not just consuming our own emotions, being fed by our own neuro-peptides cascades, but we are also consuming the emotions that we give rise to in others.
The bio-energetic field that surrounds us connects us to all of creation. We are connected to each other. Some call the structure the aura. I call it the biome, as it is supposed to be a self-sustaining habitat for the soul but seldom is for most people. By interacting with words, but also with the pure energy of intent, we are able to impose upon others fields and drain them of vital life force. The familiar game: the inteplay of subtle energy and thought, the engagement of two or more consciousnesses in the misuse of Logos – pure, creative energy – and the Divine Word, the verbal exchange of chemically-enhanced phrases designed to elicit an emotive response, the neurological cascade of chemicals, the emotional powering-up and the resultant induced and endorphin-enhanced high is the essence of vampirism. We strengthen our own biomes temporarily in this manner but, as with all addictions, the fix is soon used up and the search is on for another hit of that good stuff.
It’s very hard to stop. You really have to start paying attention to yourself and what you think and do. Most of us are asleep. By that I mean we spend most of our waking hours walking around thinking about the past and regretting or thinking about the future and worrying. If we’re not doing that we’re vegetating by watching tv or listening to music or surfing the net. Or, we’re talking to others on the phone, socializing at home or out with friends. We never really spend the time necessary to go beneath the story we tell ourselves about ourselves to find out who we really and truly are.
All of these actions are done on autopilot. Our ego, the personality complex, engages in these actions while the real you sleeps beneath. The chatter of sub-vocalization is ceaseless and we think we are aware when we really are not. We have no self-consciousness in this state, which is the reason why most of us cannot remember much about our pasts other than the big stuff. Because we weren’t really awake, in the true sense of the word, when we were going through our experiences.
If you look back at your memories, you will quickly determine that all of them are memories of when you were in the Now moment, when some event occurred that caused you to be totally present, totally awake, totally aware of what was going on. These moments are characterized by a visceral experiential perception that sharpens everything, hearing, seeing, smelling. You feel alive and totally connected to what is going on.
It takes cultivating this awareness, this ability to live in the Now, to be able to take control of your thoughts and by so doing, take control of your emotions and your life. We don’t have to consume each other. It’s really not necessary. We can access infinite energy within. Or, by going out in nature. Or, by engaging in mutually beneficial energy exchange with people who are also living a conscious life.
To defeat the pattern of energy-vampirism it is necessary to know thyself as the ancient Egyptians and Greeks put it. By learning about who you are and what you are capable of you automatically learn about other people and what they are capable of. By shutting off the inner dialogue and cultivating stillness of mind the real you that is beneath the thoughts, the center of awareness, the presence that watches, becomes visible.
Your ego becomes the tool it was designed to be when you are able to allow the real you to take control of your life. When your life is run by the Self beneath the egoistic consciousness you begin to live in tune with your highest potential. One result is that you stop engaging others in energy games because you can see them for what they are and also the futility of the inner conflict turned outwards that the way they live their lives – a mirror of the way you used to live yours – represents.
Since most spiritual paths try to make people act in a civilized manner it doesn’t really matter which one you follow just as long as you concentrate upon the inner goals of personal change, evolution and enlightenment instead of the ritual and the belief systems, which are designed to distract you from the real goal which is self-knowledge. This is not the fault of the Avatars the religions were based on but of the men who built the institutions that followed. Jesus said that we have to have the innocence of children to truly be like him. Buddha said that a state of deep peace experienced as a child led to his realization that meditation was the path to enlightenment. The point seems to be the same; that personal experience and implementation is key.
It’s like language. Certain combinations of words, vibratory resonances, create mental and physical states of BEing within which we either abide or not. Finding those particular combinations is possible no matter the tradition. The recognition of energetic patterns within us leads to the recognition of them without.
The purification of our individuated consciousnesses gives us the capacity to see the world around us in a clearer fashion. We can cast off the blinders of slumber and awaken to the brilliance of life lived consciously.
The common expectation among Seekers is that once you have a satori experience your life is supposed to change. And it does. But not always in ways that are as dramatic as you might have been led to believe.
I write very few personal articles. Which may seem contradictory to my regular readers as all of my articles are very intimate insofar as personal mental, emotional and spiritual development is concerned. What I mean, is that I try very hard not to use the first person singular, “I”, very often in my articles. So I am reticent to share this experience but somehow feel it imperative, if only as a diary of sorts kept to clarify my own process in comparison to the traditions of the Ages.
Ever since the Great Gathering a process of recapitulation has accompanied the personality reconstruction that I have been engaged in. Enlightenment is a process it does not occur suddenly. Cultivating Awareness, Being and the Heart are stages along the journey of Ultimate Enlightenment. But since the evolutionary journey is never-ending, the term “ultimate” when referring to Enlightenment is actually a misnomer in the common understanding and probably stems from the Buddha’s exemplification of the overall process and his followers many and often obfuscating interpretations of his teachings.
The experience of kenshō is a form of Enlightenment, an experience that gives the experiencer an awareness of alternate and deeper states of Being, but it is by no means an end, in and of itself. Nor is it indicative of some instantaneous process of Enlightenment beyond which lies only emptiness or some other inscrutable and penultimate destination. The belief that it is a sudden experience actually hinders progression more than it helps as people waste time seeking when it can only actually happen when you stop seeking. The egoistic tricks and traps that maintain the primacy of the personality construct actively hinder the activation of the satori experience as it is only when the quiescence of the deeper states of spiritual BEingness is pierced by the ego at the behest of the greater awareness that kenshō can occur.
My recent satori experience left me foundering for context as my immersion in Buddhist tradition has been relegated to Shambhala training alone and not the deeper aspects of Buddhism as a religion where such events and how to incorporate them into your life are well documented. To put it bluntly, I didn’t get that far in my training. A few books, a summer at a meditation center, a heart opening and then, back to life as lived, incorporating those events into my daily grind.
Lo Jong mind training and Tonglen, sending and taking, were powerful consciousness practices that came naturally to me and incorporating them into my life was not difficult. In the intervening year and a half since then, occasional yet powerful practice in these and other meditations in addition to my studies and shifts in personal behavior created the spiritual opening necessary in order to achieve the next step. But it was the progress of my unusual life that prepared me for what was to come.
Although I was raised in a Christian home and find validity in its deeper teachings it is the Buddhist tradition that I find most clearly expresses the details of spiritual progress. From this standpoint, I have lived multiple lifetimes in search of Enlightenment. I entered this lifetime with a path designed to achieve that aim which included a relatively peaceful and stable upbringing with all of my basic needs met. A lifetime of travel, which allowed me to discover that people are the same wherever you go. That no place is essentially any different from any other outside of the vagaries of the physical environment. Educational opportunities that gave me access to the cultural treasures and wisdom of the Ages. Everything necessary to awaken my spirit of inquiry.
Basic goodness has been one of the principle expressions of my personality. This aspect has been marred by personal psychological and emotional deviations self-imposed upon my mental and spiritual awareness by familial and racial tropes common to the Age and my incarnative situation of being born into a black body in what is currently a white-dominated world. Being completely different from even those who looked like me on the outside. Emotions and experiences of Otherness, of rejection, of alienation, of aloneness occasioned the deeper exploration of mental and spiritual space at an early age, resulting in my first kenshō at the age of 12 after a particularly traumatic series of experiences at the hands of my peer group.
Experiential living, incarnate within a particular form at a particular time in a particular cultural context determines the details of a life. The choices are then between inner nature and environment. The choice towards inner nature leads invariably to enlightenment. The choice towards environment leads to more and harder lessons. Life as lived in the world as it currently is tends toward the material environment and mental and emotional immersion within it.
Relationships, marriage, children, jobs. Success, failure, loss. The dark night of the soul. Dedication to spiritual progress once the realization that material success is empty and meaningless is internalized. Then, the gradual recapitulation of a lifetime and its lessons. Self-forgiveness and the forgiveness of others. The alignment of inner values with outer expression. Living life in this manner gradually produces clarity in intention and lifestyle.
Basic goodness becomes the outer expression of the inner state of BEing. Life becomes simple. Spiritual practice becomes second-nature and a lifestyle rather than a weekly or holiday-centered obligation. Losing the “I” in the greater sense of the “We”, humility becomes the natural expression of Self. Truly listening to others, cultivating silence within leads to a steady-state resonance with one’s inner-nature which is also human nature in general.
After the kenshō experience, the realization that social obligation demands the molding of the personality to one’s environment must be weighed against the impetus to embody a more malleable and formless state of BEing. Changing the personality construct totally can traumatize those in immediate proximity who may not fully understand what just occurred. It then becomes a question of prioritization that loses its immediacy as the realization that the higher states of BEing are available at any time sinks in.
But something inside has indeed shifted irrevocably. Further spiritual evolution and experience is now inevitable and a byproduct of what has become a proven and natural process of self-realization. Synchronicities increase as awareness also increases. The state of slumber that typifies the unawakened consciousness lessens gradually as more and deeper lessons accrue.
The ego remains. It becomes apparent that the ego is actually a necessary component of Enlightenment. It is the lens directed inward toward deeper consciousness at the behest of the yearnings of the soul. It is designed to be a tool and once utilized as such accepts its role as the silence of the Awakened mind becomes the normative state of awareness.
Experience trumps hearsay in every case. Once gained, it can never be lost.